Of course today is Kobe Bryant's memorial so I'm going to talk about it, and discuss my connection to him and basketball.
No sport has captivated me more and I've been introduced to several, baseball, tennis, hockey, volleyball, track, soccer but when I finally landed on basketball during the golden era of 90s, it was a wrap. I knew which sport was going to be it for me.
It's really an incredible experience, such a fully realized, complex yet simplistic experience to learn and master basketball skills. I mean it's essentially a combo of darts and soccer I suppose. You can master shooting and focus on that, or get damn good at forcing the ball to the hoop and get good at driving and dribbling, there's a whole universe of possibilities and always new methods to discover. And it's fast paced unlike many sports, which is where you're going to be tested most, running back and forth again and again, not easy stuff but that's like more or less where my leg strength comes from over the years getting used to the hustle of basketball.
So where does Kobe come in. I was more an Iverson fan than Kobe but I noted his excellence as a player growing up. I liked what he could do more than I liked him personally. Only just recently did I discover he's truly more than I thought he was back in the day. He was destined for basketball. He knew he was destined for basketball and he embraced it. Looking back I regret not paying more attention to his rise. I was there just casually watching a kobe game or something. But yeah I was always interested in seeing what kind of win he could sqeeze out last second or most memorable for me was his battles with Iverson which I watched and cemented his greatness in my mind with how he understood basketball so well and played smartly.
He was a smart player, knew what he could do, and did everything he could to win even if it lead to losing. His tenacity energized the sport that had very few great star personalities left in it after the old titans in the league started to retire. We still had him, he wasn't going anywhere. And he was a good dude. So beyond sad that we lose decent stars with passion for what they do and we get left with this current NBA which in my opinion is a shadow of the former tougher epic stuff it once was. I don't truly feel like I'm watching the nba I used to know anymore. It's like some are saying way too friendly. Used to be a warzone to be frank and let me get to that.
I love basketball but if you play basketball in my hood, you're going to come away hating it. Dudes you meet on the court are jerks and turn my sport that I love and spent so much of my time getting better at into a big immature mean spirited negative ego fest. That's the negative side of basketball the immaturity it generates in some fools. But that's part of it, what can you do.
Those of us who love and understand what basketball's about, working with each other and self improvement, yeah we don't let it devolve into that kinda nonsense.
Kobe didn't and that's why I have so much respect for him, he did bring a lot of dignity to it. And passion, we need those passion players.
Feels like I'm in a damn nightmare to be honest. Gonna wake up soon, right... Never thought it'd be over, the Kobe legacy just ended and yeah he truly was a legendary player, dude scared entire teams he was that elite. I don't know what else to say. It's not easy to move on and yeah we need to learn from him, what did Kobe teach us in the end with his life.
Do what matters to you with everything everyday, I'm going to say.
Monday, February 24, 2020
Sunday, January 26, 2020
Not much else to say...
Gone way too soon. It was always debatable who was better or who would beat who in their prime ages jordan or kobe. There was no hypobole or falseness to claiming he was a great player and game elevating player maybe even a true jordan successor but he was way more than that and only recently was I watching kobe vids and learning about just how much deeper a person he was. I only ever knew he was a basketball prodigy who skipped college. Never knew he was born to play.. None of that stuff... No words indeed shaq. Shit hurts. All the stuff about him being churned up now about his legal troubles... I dont give a damn. No one cared when he was alive. Apparently its only important when it gets you attention on your meaningless tweets. So stupidly obvious why people are bringing up his dirty laundry as if hes been doing such evils recently. Such sad nobodies doing nobody things. Its just fucked up. No reason to that madness. Insane day this is. I wish nobody fucking got on that busted piece of shit budget helicopter. Piece of tin not worthy of having kobes ass sit in it... Dumb ass weak ass unfair end to the man and his kid's life. Numb. Never going to feel justice in this.
Wednesday, January 15, 2020
Fixed it
Things like this are always such a simple solution at times. Much like microsoft gamebar being the sole reason why my pc froze while playing any game, here was the simplest solution that only got solved today after years of giving up on it. The contacts to the speakers are merely some kind of conductive thread. What that means is that any dust or rust build up would eventually prevent contact between the thread and the contact points. Used an aluminum brush to scrape the contacts and thread wire and put some bit of foam padding to hopefully prevent any more movement of the threads since speakers vibrate and cause mini movement and it's now working like its supposed to, no cut off of sound at all. Nothing to do with over heating...
It's now possible to sell this tv off as fully functional or give it away or whatever, it's 100% normal now, jesus, why'd it take me this long to figure out the problem.
Might do just that, get a beasty nice 4k top of the line tv and get rid of this and sell it to whoever for a decent price. I bought it for like goddamn, can't remember but it was my first ever flat screen tv that I purchased for myself. I think it was around 80 dollars on black friday sale, or something like that so I bought it, had no idea about 1080p vs 720p, completely clueless so I didn't know this thing was basically just adequate not the best of its kind, no idea. But it's been with me for a good number of years. So sad when the sound went on it, and no one had any solution to it. Well if you own one of these DX-32L200A12 Dynex Sets, There ya go, I think I solved the problem permanently and you can too!
It's now possible to sell this tv off as fully functional or give it away or whatever, it's 100% normal now, jesus, why'd it take me this long to figure out the problem.
Might do just that, get a beasty nice 4k top of the line tv and get rid of this and sell it to whoever for a decent price. I bought it for like goddamn, can't remember but it was my first ever flat screen tv that I purchased for myself. I think it was around 80 dollars on black friday sale, or something like that so I bought it, had no idea about 1080p vs 720p, completely clueless so I didn't know this thing was basically just adequate not the best of its kind, no idea. But it's been with me for a good number of years. So sad when the sound went on it, and no one had any solution to it. Well if you own one of these DX-32L200A12 Dynex Sets, There ya go, I think I solved the problem permanently and you can too!
so far so good
Getting to the end of this book I'm reading. I stole the book, my apologies, stole knowledge that will make me improve myself. Lock my ass up.
Kinda a therapy I'm doing for myself so I look at it that way, rather spend my days trying to get smarter about things than be resigned to this state of nothingness and irrelevancy.
trying to fix this tv and sad to report it's a fail or is failing. Some vid claims tvs like this can have heat issues and cause sound problems so I stuck a fan near the vent holes where the main chips are and I'm hoping it'll have an impact. Longest I've ever really got it to keep the sound going so I'd consider that a win. Problem is it's starting to short out and stutter out a bit...
I mainly want to post about this to tell my experience when I opened the tv up one day. Found a bunch of spider webs inside of it. They were probably causing whatever heat dissapation that was meant to happen to be blocked and make the chips get excessively hot causing sound cut outs.
As I type this right now it's failed. The sound has finally cut off completely and that's what I wanted to see if the thing would finally over heat and fail after a while of being on and it did.
So I'm forced to go further and actually open the tv and clean it of dust then maybe mod it with a fan built in some how see if that works to keep the chips from auto shutting down when temps go crazy... sucks, this old beat up piece of crap, yeah gonna have to upgrade...
Kinda a therapy I'm doing for myself so I look at it that way, rather spend my days trying to get smarter about things than be resigned to this state of nothingness and irrelevancy.
trying to fix this tv and sad to report it's a fail or is failing. Some vid claims tvs like this can have heat issues and cause sound problems so I stuck a fan near the vent holes where the main chips are and I'm hoping it'll have an impact. Longest I've ever really got it to keep the sound going so I'd consider that a win. Problem is it's starting to short out and stutter out a bit...
I mainly want to post about this to tell my experience when I opened the tv up one day. Found a bunch of spider webs inside of it. They were probably causing whatever heat dissapation that was meant to happen to be blocked and make the chips get excessively hot causing sound cut outs.
As I type this right now it's failed. The sound has finally cut off completely and that's what I wanted to see if the thing would finally over heat and fail after a while of being on and it did.
So I'm forced to go further and actually open the tv and clean it of dust then maybe mod it with a fan built in some how see if that works to keep the chips from auto shutting down when temps go crazy... sucks, this old beat up piece of crap, yeah gonna have to upgrade...
Tuesday, January 14, 2020
Geezuz Christmas
So flaming tired of reading about race this race that. Yeah, Taimak is right, it is boring, wise words.
Stephen King all getting into the race dumpster fire debate himself and getting tarred and feathered by the justice mob on twitter for it. That's the internet dude, people don't care what your words mean, they make up their own and twist it until it turns into something they don't like etc... beyond asinine but that's how this thing works.
Childish kindergarten foolishness and I'm hoping to get grown up enough to be beyond it but it's apparent to me that nobody's grown up, people are just big dumb kids forever.
Well what do I think about the yet again, complaints and such about awards being given only to certain films or whatever based on race.
Yes there is a big honking shadow of racism covering all of everything in american society, films too. Yeah, it's there, it's been there for a billion years. But why do we still care about it? It's clown town nonsense don't worry about those people and the strings they're pulling. Stop promoting this boogeyman evil big bad out there idea and just do what you want to do and be the best you can be at it... Fuck that cartoonish racist hollywood crap and buck the system, make your own movies, do it for yourself and don't blame anyone else... I'm not going to sugar coat it. Stephen King is right. I'd say today's probably a lot easier time to be able to get your foot in the door in the art world and the better you are the more you'll get famous hopefully (whole nother story about the way that works). It's better now not saying it's flawless and there aren't biases, but it's indeed better... I hate that there's tribalism at the root of why people attack or put down anyone's art. Oh I don't like whites so I hate that they're making this, oh I hate those blacks so I'll do my best to put down their stuff, on and on.
Only difference is one side will get what they want truth be told. If a bunch of KKK fags want to go around belittling everything black, they'll make an actual impact sad to say. That's the only contention I have with what Stephen King's saying to be honest. He's right, art should be about just quality, nothing else, fuck any other criteria. It's not about quotas, none of that, just pursuing something extraordinary and amazing, right... all of us in the art world understand this and know what he's saying. Art is a struggle, it's like a real soul crushing struggle that is about much more than any quantifiable stuff. You can't claim art for "your people" it's about the individual person making it really... which is what people don't get and feel there's been some link between race and quality of one's art... jeez grow up already.
Yes, if the day comes, it'd be fantastic for ANY rapper of any race to be given awards on BET. I think BET needs to go in my mind. It's a tribalistic backwards regression into jim crow more than anything, oh here's a channel just for ya darkies... hardy har har, now stay off our regular nice and pristine Happy Days Leave it to Beaver stations since you got your own now... I guess that's what's happening, they gave blacks a channel to get them to stop complaining about the lack of blacks on tv. Bounce too. We're seeing segregation still going on right the hell now in 2020, this is just retarded.
We're retarded, bro. This whole thing has me just like losing my mind yanno. Seeing the wage gap, seeing blacks still all crusty and homeless and crap, seeing the foolish whining back and forth all the time about not liking a whole f'n race of people because of the actions of a small group. We're retarded or what... Seeing the thought policing going on too. You can't talk about certain things because you'll get public shame and this goes on both sides, justice mob and maga fags. BOTH are retarded and think they'll change the world from their toilet while on their laptops.
Awww man, just all of yall just stop trying to sound like you know anything. you don't... You're children on the playground called the internet running around pretending to be someone of significance when it's all make believe.
Final thoughts though, if a blackity black person wants to get up there and get the big awards, can it be done, can he just make something excellent and super great and get rewarded for it. YES*
The Asterisk being that he's got to f'n fight and claw through A LOT more than the non-black person does, but still that's a yes. But yanno, are we wanting to make life seem like it's fucking utopia. Yes Black people have to bust their ass a shit ton harder than whites to get anywhere... women have to push out kids. We all will grow old and be drooling and wrinkly as we slowly die. Sad to say but life's a bitch people... I'm not going to jump on the "extreme" bandwagon and look at this as a black and white issue which is what so many like to do now, it simply is not....
Stephen King all getting into the race dumpster fire debate himself and getting tarred and feathered by the justice mob on twitter for it. That's the internet dude, people don't care what your words mean, they make up their own and twist it until it turns into something they don't like etc... beyond asinine but that's how this thing works.
Childish kindergarten foolishness and I'm hoping to get grown up enough to be beyond it but it's apparent to me that nobody's grown up, people are just big dumb kids forever.
Well what do I think about the yet again, complaints and such about awards being given only to certain films or whatever based on race.
Yes there is a big honking shadow of racism covering all of everything in american society, films too. Yeah, it's there, it's been there for a billion years. But why do we still care about it? It's clown town nonsense don't worry about those people and the strings they're pulling. Stop promoting this boogeyman evil big bad out there idea and just do what you want to do and be the best you can be at it... Fuck that cartoonish racist hollywood crap and buck the system, make your own movies, do it for yourself and don't blame anyone else... I'm not going to sugar coat it. Stephen King is right. I'd say today's probably a lot easier time to be able to get your foot in the door in the art world and the better you are the more you'll get famous hopefully (whole nother story about the way that works). It's better now not saying it's flawless and there aren't biases, but it's indeed better... I hate that there's tribalism at the root of why people attack or put down anyone's art. Oh I don't like whites so I hate that they're making this, oh I hate those blacks so I'll do my best to put down their stuff, on and on.
Only difference is one side will get what they want truth be told. If a bunch of KKK fags want to go around belittling everything black, they'll make an actual impact sad to say. That's the only contention I have with what Stephen King's saying to be honest. He's right, art should be about just quality, nothing else, fuck any other criteria. It's not about quotas, none of that, just pursuing something extraordinary and amazing, right... all of us in the art world understand this and know what he's saying. Art is a struggle, it's like a real soul crushing struggle that is about much more than any quantifiable stuff. You can't claim art for "your people" it's about the individual person making it really... which is what people don't get and feel there's been some link between race and quality of one's art... jeez grow up already.
Yes, if the day comes, it'd be fantastic for ANY rapper of any race to be given awards on BET. I think BET needs to go in my mind. It's a tribalistic backwards regression into jim crow more than anything, oh here's a channel just for ya darkies... hardy har har, now stay off our regular nice and pristine Happy Days Leave it to Beaver stations since you got your own now... I guess that's what's happening, they gave blacks a channel to get them to stop complaining about the lack of blacks on tv. Bounce too. We're seeing segregation still going on right the hell now in 2020, this is just retarded.
We're retarded, bro. This whole thing has me just like losing my mind yanno. Seeing the wage gap, seeing blacks still all crusty and homeless and crap, seeing the foolish whining back and forth all the time about not liking a whole f'n race of people because of the actions of a small group. We're retarded or what... Seeing the thought policing going on too. You can't talk about certain things because you'll get public shame and this goes on both sides, justice mob and maga fags. BOTH are retarded and think they'll change the world from their toilet while on their laptops.
Awww man, just all of yall just stop trying to sound like you know anything. you don't... You're children on the playground called the internet running around pretending to be someone of significance when it's all make believe.
Final thoughts though, if a blackity black person wants to get up there and get the big awards, can it be done, can he just make something excellent and super great and get rewarded for it. YES*
The Asterisk being that he's got to f'n fight and claw through A LOT more than the non-black person does, but still that's a yes. But yanno, are we wanting to make life seem like it's fucking utopia. Yes Black people have to bust their ass a shit ton harder than whites to get anywhere... women have to push out kids. We all will grow old and be drooling and wrinkly as we slowly die. Sad to say but life's a bitch people... I'm not going to jump on the "extreme" bandwagon and look at this as a black and white issue which is what so many like to do now, it simply is not....
Thursday, January 9, 2020
state of black tv
what state, am I right? It's kinda non existant... I came across some tweet by tyler perry about how he writes all his shows by himself. Let's talk about that I think that's important.
I mean I have sat amongst big top black celebs at the action expo and been amongst them and what they talk about so I've glanced what the current atmosphere or vibe is in that world.
Lots of comments about how tyler should be hiring more black writers and his shows will have a better more wider perspective to them than just his own.
Let me set the stage though. I'm not a fan of his stuff and believe me I'm one of the few in this life of ours that will take the time to check out black movies and tv shows because I'm from that universe and enjoy watching black shows and stuff because it reminds me of my life, so yeah there ya go.
I just don't get the appeal of the Madea stuff. It's coonery or something right? Am I missing the point of that whole thing?
I tried man. Waay back, I was binging on bunch of movies from reddit where they put up a ton of christmas movies. I love christmas stuff so I said alright watch this madea christmas movie... brain damn exploded from how awful it was... goddamn...
I'm not even a prude and recognize that it's just kinda a natural part of the black world view to be sort of weird or off-norm, fine, but that wasn't really even so bad its good kinda thing, just bad it's bad...
I've glanced meet the browns while at work and yanno that's why he's succeeding I think. He's making shows to casually kinda snooze watch during a rough day or something not quality. I didn't even give a hoot about the episode but it was what it was, a mediocre crap sitcom to watch between flights...
Meet the browns, Meet the Negros, what is with that... yanno what, guess that's Tyler, casual coonery boy?
But I say this in a more serious light, the black voice in the media world is needing a heavy super duper overhaul and needs to be steered further away from this 1950s coonery crap, goddamn... It's like, the future now, come on...
I'm not going to name names. I grew up with and have a lot of deep love for a lot of black actors and actresses so I've deleted what I wrote about that. No I'm not going to say that... I know she's not anywhere close to perry's level of foolishness. I step back away from that thought...
It's a chess game, what it is. Maybe Perry's playing the only game he knows how to play to make enough money to truly put his talent towards other more respectable things, I don't got a clue... But I don't necessarily blame a lot of blacks in hollywood for taking the paths they do until they can find more meaningful better work. It's a rougher path for them in the end.
Yeah i guess Don Cheadle's a great example. Dude's been in a lot of garbage then started doing movies that matter to him. It's what it is, he's never had a choice in his career but to be the black friend in a ton of movies and tolken it up until he could build clout enough to become a box office draw, smart sob...
I'm studying these guys more now yanno, black celebs so I can figure out what their career plans were.
They all seem to have found success in a more affirmative action way, then used that as a spring board for independent success and coast on their name recognition. Kinda brilliant when you think about it... But I wish it wasn't about abusing the AA system until it benefits you, just idealy be the best and get recognition in that way.
Anyway I'm just putting this out there because I grew up seeing black shows non-stop and today yeah it's just kinda weird to basically see a string of shows on tv etc. featuring one tolken tossed black guy or girl just like a lot of shows used to do and I'm just personally baffled by that.
Race is a thing I never cared about when it comes to shows, if it's good I enjoy it... but yeah it's more to do with culture. I don't think black/africanamerican culture is being represented at all or in a way that's reflecting the reality. Having some tolken black on your show doesn't cut it. Having black shows all be coonery tyler perry nonsense ain't it. And wow I can't even think of many black shows at all, that's strange. Man there really is a giant gaping hole there isn't it. Jesus christ...
Let's steer this towards the why though. Why does it matter to make a black show or black movie or black blackity black brown nappy negro anything...
It's not our world. We're the ones that have always had to fight to be given a damn anything. What's making a show or movie about blacks going to matter in a world where blacks don't have any power.
Yikes, tough ass question to answer. It's an art thing, that's all. Forget race, forget political power dynamics, forget money, forget all that.
Sit and listen to me. Art is not meant to be limited. By cutting blacks short, that's merely limiting potential for new more interesting stories to be told that you simply won't get from only one culture's perspective. AH. ya see?
Ya see that shit? I mean there it is, the biggest argument for diversity ever. You want that inclusiveness and variety and new ideas to ferment, grow, proliferate.
Being black isn't special I'll tell you that. It's not. All that hip hop shit is a smokescreen. Blacks eat sleep shit and fuck same as everybody else.
But yeah there's something meritous to having the black viewpoint represented rather than not. Check this. I've already postulated this in some vid I made. But yeah, if there's any race that can represent an underdog story it's the black race and I talked about this, how so many movies struggle with making the white protagonist seem to have problems. It wasn't until I binge watched a bunch of Denzel movies that I felt like I was watching a protagonist who ACTUALLY had an uphill battle in life and deserved sympathy. Ah ya see?
I mean blacks are good for those stories, if it's a story about a character that's got to go up against the world that's keeping him down... Well shit, there it is.
Only movies like unbreakable have like tried to subvert the trend, make the black person have the power and interestingly the white dude is made out to be a pawn in his complex plans, never saw that before in my life as a film watcher, never seen that. That's why M. Night got it, he took that risk, we need more directors like him.
And before the trigger happy sensitive racist bullcrap starts, I'm not championing or trying to say I want to flip it and make everything about blacks over whites. I'm pointing out how like Mr. Glass eventually transcended race. I doubt anyone really cared about him being black although that informed a lot about him. His disease and massive intelligence was what defined him.
That's where we could be making shows and stuff where the characters are so colorful they transcend race and make that part irrelevant really.... I'd be down for that.
I mean I have sat amongst big top black celebs at the action expo and been amongst them and what they talk about so I've glanced what the current atmosphere or vibe is in that world.
Lots of comments about how tyler should be hiring more black writers and his shows will have a better more wider perspective to them than just his own.
Let me set the stage though. I'm not a fan of his stuff and believe me I'm one of the few in this life of ours that will take the time to check out black movies and tv shows because I'm from that universe and enjoy watching black shows and stuff because it reminds me of my life, so yeah there ya go.
I just don't get the appeal of the Madea stuff. It's coonery or something right? Am I missing the point of that whole thing?
I tried man. Waay back, I was binging on bunch of movies from reddit where they put up a ton of christmas movies. I love christmas stuff so I said alright watch this madea christmas movie... brain damn exploded from how awful it was... goddamn...
I'm not even a prude and recognize that it's just kinda a natural part of the black world view to be sort of weird or off-norm, fine, but that wasn't really even so bad its good kinda thing, just bad it's bad...
I've glanced meet the browns while at work and yanno that's why he's succeeding I think. He's making shows to casually kinda snooze watch during a rough day or something not quality. I didn't even give a hoot about the episode but it was what it was, a mediocre crap sitcom to watch between flights...
Meet the browns, Meet the Negros, what is with that... yanno what, guess that's Tyler, casual coonery boy?
But I say this in a more serious light, the black voice in the media world is needing a heavy super duper overhaul and needs to be steered further away from this 1950s coonery crap, goddamn... It's like, the future now, come on...
I'm not going to name names. I grew up with and have a lot of deep love for a lot of black actors and actresses so I've deleted what I wrote about that. No I'm not going to say that... I know she's not anywhere close to perry's level of foolishness. I step back away from that thought...
It's a chess game, what it is. Maybe Perry's playing the only game he knows how to play to make enough money to truly put his talent towards other more respectable things, I don't got a clue... But I don't necessarily blame a lot of blacks in hollywood for taking the paths they do until they can find more meaningful better work. It's a rougher path for them in the end.
Yeah i guess Don Cheadle's a great example. Dude's been in a lot of garbage then started doing movies that matter to him. It's what it is, he's never had a choice in his career but to be the black friend in a ton of movies and tolken it up until he could build clout enough to become a box office draw, smart sob...
I'm studying these guys more now yanno, black celebs so I can figure out what their career plans were.
They all seem to have found success in a more affirmative action way, then used that as a spring board for independent success and coast on their name recognition. Kinda brilliant when you think about it... But I wish it wasn't about abusing the AA system until it benefits you, just idealy be the best and get recognition in that way.
Anyway I'm just putting this out there because I grew up seeing black shows non-stop and today yeah it's just kinda weird to basically see a string of shows on tv etc. featuring one tolken tossed black guy or girl just like a lot of shows used to do and I'm just personally baffled by that.
Race is a thing I never cared about when it comes to shows, if it's good I enjoy it... but yeah it's more to do with culture. I don't think black/africanamerican culture is being represented at all or in a way that's reflecting the reality. Having some tolken black on your show doesn't cut it. Having black shows all be coonery tyler perry nonsense ain't it. And wow I can't even think of many black shows at all, that's strange. Man there really is a giant gaping hole there isn't it. Jesus christ...
Let's steer this towards the why though. Why does it matter to make a black show or black movie or black blackity black brown nappy negro anything...
It's not our world. We're the ones that have always had to fight to be given a damn anything. What's making a show or movie about blacks going to matter in a world where blacks don't have any power.
Yikes, tough ass question to answer. It's an art thing, that's all. Forget race, forget political power dynamics, forget money, forget all that.
Sit and listen to me. Art is not meant to be limited. By cutting blacks short, that's merely limiting potential for new more interesting stories to be told that you simply won't get from only one culture's perspective. AH. ya see?
Ya see that shit? I mean there it is, the biggest argument for diversity ever. You want that inclusiveness and variety and new ideas to ferment, grow, proliferate.
Being black isn't special I'll tell you that. It's not. All that hip hop shit is a smokescreen. Blacks eat sleep shit and fuck same as everybody else.
But yeah there's something meritous to having the black viewpoint represented rather than not. Check this. I've already postulated this in some vid I made. But yeah, if there's any race that can represent an underdog story it's the black race and I talked about this, how so many movies struggle with making the white protagonist seem to have problems. It wasn't until I binge watched a bunch of Denzel movies that I felt like I was watching a protagonist who ACTUALLY had an uphill battle in life and deserved sympathy. Ah ya see?
I mean blacks are good for those stories, if it's a story about a character that's got to go up against the world that's keeping him down... Well shit, there it is.
Only movies like unbreakable have like tried to subvert the trend, make the black person have the power and interestingly the white dude is made out to be a pawn in his complex plans, never saw that before in my life as a film watcher, never seen that. That's why M. Night got it, he took that risk, we need more directors like him.
And before the trigger happy sensitive racist bullcrap starts, I'm not championing or trying to say I want to flip it and make everything about blacks over whites. I'm pointing out how like Mr. Glass eventually transcended race. I doubt anyone really cared about him being black although that informed a lot about him. His disease and massive intelligence was what defined him.
That's where we could be making shows and stuff where the characters are so colorful they transcend race and make that part irrelevant really.... I'd be down for that.
Tuesday, January 7, 2020
Thought Police
Got thinking about this primarily because it's precisely what's going on these days though I'm old enough now to know to not give a shit about it, but it does annoy one, it does.
Yes, make no mistake there's a considerable tribalistic society and rampant paranoia permeating throughout this current at least visible level of daily existence.
Forget the Alt Right clowns or the Left Extreme SJW stuff. I find it boring to have to read nothing but extreme opinions from people trying to get a visceral response and group think session started. It's blatant mindless kindergarten level boy cried wolf garbage. It works, indeed, cry and complain enough about something people are emotionally inclinded to find detestable and you'll get the masses to gang up on anyone you want. It's easy.
Yes i'm looking at you Shaun King. To decry fox news all day then prettymuch flaunt their exact tactics, you dumb fuck.
Not just him, I'm pointing a finger at all the hypocrites who bitch about fox news' propoganda then engage in their own. If you don't like propoganda, don't do it. Don't pretend to not like it then put biased shit on your youtube pages and other media platforms. You suck.
Fox News exists because of the way some lard ass will sit at his computer all day and try to mold people's thoughts like clay. So they try to subvert that and go to again "extremes" to get an upperhand in people's minds and they're very good at it unfortunately... somewhat admirable the spin machine they've created.
The "left" has no equivalent. Similarly to how there really isn't a Black Panther party that's as powerful as the KKK.
Was reading a thread and one little whiny bitch decides to chime in that the justice mob loves to target white males. It's true, yes, I'll agree. Shaun King's a moron who does indeed seem to target any white people he discovers showcasing racism, guilty or not. Point taken. But the thing that pushes me over the edge with rage is this same fuckwit will NEVER stand up and whine about the thousandth innocent black person killed by a cop or put in jail over nothing but eating a sandwich in the wrong place. so shut up. You have nothing to whine about. I'm personally tired of the childish social justice mob stuff and its unbalanced disproportioned extreme outrage stuff too, but blacks get it far and away worse and have for a long time. so, pfft, yeah guess it's been a rough ride for whites or something?
shrugs?
Wow the stuff people complain about in front of black people sometimes. I mean if you've been there you know...
War brewing, people dying, all cuz some black guy was pres for a while and scared the crap out of the KKK that things were changing or something.
Yeah I said it... the sad thing about being black to me, the worst part is waking up one day to see that there's like this power dynamic that's being kept in check and those in power are scared shitless of losing it... And maybe they should be, I don't know... I don't like most black people either to be frank, but I sure as hell don't think that should mean there's no standards and any dumbass person of the right color deserves to run the country or get the top job.
I'm learning... the internet is not the place to learn about the manipulation tactics people employ, there's people on here who are psychotic and will go crazy on you, so this is certainly not the best place to figure out who's full of shit and who isn't. It's just an observation and a few thoughts on it... will this go anywhere? Does it matter that there's a bunch of keyboard warriors fighting a futile war over 'info'
It kinda does? I don't know. we all know the media is full of shit especially fox news. We all know the politicians are lying assholes. The thing that's most damning though is the justice mob online. I have to side with thouse saying they're getting too big, too powerful for their own good and have already gotten people killed as is evidence by the whole online swatting thing. This is wrong. No one entity should be judge jury and executioner on anyone. period. It has to be kept in check.
Sad to see people at forums supporting this 1984 conform and stay in line evil empire that's forming. Oh fuck off with that NAZI shit please. I mean that's what they're basically supporting a dictatorship. Dangerous sick people out there.
I'm american, and I love this country and fuck nazis and fuck monarchys and fuck any of that twitter justice mob shit.
FREEDOM.
Yes, make no mistake there's a considerable tribalistic society and rampant paranoia permeating throughout this current at least visible level of daily existence.
Forget the Alt Right clowns or the Left Extreme SJW stuff. I find it boring to have to read nothing but extreme opinions from people trying to get a visceral response and group think session started. It's blatant mindless kindergarten level boy cried wolf garbage. It works, indeed, cry and complain enough about something people are emotionally inclinded to find detestable and you'll get the masses to gang up on anyone you want. It's easy.
Yes i'm looking at you Shaun King. To decry fox news all day then prettymuch flaunt their exact tactics, you dumb fuck.
Not just him, I'm pointing a finger at all the hypocrites who bitch about fox news' propoganda then engage in their own. If you don't like propoganda, don't do it. Don't pretend to not like it then put biased shit on your youtube pages and other media platforms. You suck.
Fox News exists because of the way some lard ass will sit at his computer all day and try to mold people's thoughts like clay. So they try to subvert that and go to again "extremes" to get an upperhand in people's minds and they're very good at it unfortunately... somewhat admirable the spin machine they've created.
The "left" has no equivalent. Similarly to how there really isn't a Black Panther party that's as powerful as the KKK.
Was reading a thread and one little whiny bitch decides to chime in that the justice mob loves to target white males. It's true, yes, I'll agree. Shaun King's a moron who does indeed seem to target any white people he discovers showcasing racism, guilty or not. Point taken. But the thing that pushes me over the edge with rage is this same fuckwit will NEVER stand up and whine about the thousandth innocent black person killed by a cop or put in jail over nothing but eating a sandwich in the wrong place. so shut up. You have nothing to whine about. I'm personally tired of the childish social justice mob stuff and its unbalanced disproportioned extreme outrage stuff too, but blacks get it far and away worse and have for a long time. so, pfft, yeah guess it's been a rough ride for whites or something?
shrugs?
Wow the stuff people complain about in front of black people sometimes. I mean if you've been there you know...
War brewing, people dying, all cuz some black guy was pres for a while and scared the crap out of the KKK that things were changing or something.
Yeah I said it... the sad thing about being black to me, the worst part is waking up one day to see that there's like this power dynamic that's being kept in check and those in power are scared shitless of losing it... And maybe they should be, I don't know... I don't like most black people either to be frank, but I sure as hell don't think that should mean there's no standards and any dumbass person of the right color deserves to run the country or get the top job.
I'm learning... the internet is not the place to learn about the manipulation tactics people employ, there's people on here who are psychotic and will go crazy on you, so this is certainly not the best place to figure out who's full of shit and who isn't. It's just an observation and a few thoughts on it... will this go anywhere? Does it matter that there's a bunch of keyboard warriors fighting a futile war over 'info'
It kinda does? I don't know. we all know the media is full of shit especially fox news. We all know the politicians are lying assholes. The thing that's most damning though is the justice mob online. I have to side with thouse saying they're getting too big, too powerful for their own good and have already gotten people killed as is evidence by the whole online swatting thing. This is wrong. No one entity should be judge jury and executioner on anyone. period. It has to be kept in check.
Sad to see people at forums supporting this 1984 conform and stay in line evil empire that's forming. Oh fuck off with that NAZI shit please. I mean that's what they're basically supporting a dictatorship. Dangerous sick people out there.
I'm american, and I love this country and fuck nazis and fuck monarchys and fuck any of that twitter justice mob shit.
FREEDOM.
Wednesday, December 25, 2019
Happy Holidays
I never do christmas posts. I'm in the middle of writing a anxtey ass post about the struggles blacks face. And it strikes me, why am I doing that on a day of joy and presents and forgetting your worries.
Yeah not even me going to go and spend today all morose and spiteful.
Everybody should get some damn joy today and be a little happy in this dismal horrible world we inhabit.
I do hope today's a good one even to those I don't like, wow that takes courage, wishing your enemies a decent happy day.
That's jesus. That's what he was trying to say. Go to your worst enemy and be kind to him or her.
Think about it, think about how hard that is. I'm thinking about it right now, the people I don't like, and how it would be ridiculously tough to wish them well. But if you follow the book, that's the way...
up to you. Good luck everybody.
Yeah not even me going to go and spend today all morose and spiteful.
Everybody should get some damn joy today and be a little happy in this dismal horrible world we inhabit.
I do hope today's a good one even to those I don't like, wow that takes courage, wishing your enemies a decent happy day.
That's jesus. That's what he was trying to say. Go to your worst enemy and be kind to him or her.
Think about it, think about how hard that is. I'm thinking about it right now, the people I don't like, and how it would be ridiculously tough to wish them well. But if you follow the book, that's the way...
up to you. Good luck everybody.
Sunday, December 22, 2019
So lost right now
What's 7 dollars for a early morning showing eh, just go wack off to some lightsaber fest and be back in time for a good relaxing shower or something...
Yeah yunno the clickbaiter parade has begun but in my years of giving a crap about star wars videos and stuff, I just don't feel compelled to this time.
It kinda really is over for me. Oh should I spend 15 minutes watching this review which will likely end up parroting every one elses thoughts or don't waste my time.
Will or won't I go see the movie and be done with it. I've watched so many of these movies in theaters though, I've wasted so much on this kind of stuff I do not want to keep pumping my money away into some clumbsy sequel thing to a beloved franchise.
I think it's time to put a strong foot down and say no more, that's all.
I've been doing the go arounds looking at so many view points on the film its flaws, its good parts, the better approaches to the script, what's been cut. It's all kinda a big last attempt to scramble for something to find that's fine with it. I'll tell you this. Yeah I went to ALL of the spider man movies. And I've yet to see any of the homecoming and stuff movies and I just don't want to. I'm burned out on those films and just tired of them by this point. I don't give a sith about yet another in a damn assembly line of spidey movies, my apologies.
And make no mistake rise of skywalker's like spidey 3 or even better comparison is dark knight rises. I don't hate either of those films, but they undoubtedly dropped the ball. In rises case too it couldn't proceed with a joker storyline at all since the passing of the actor really and that might have impacted things. All things considered it did what it had to do and finished the story set up in batman begins even if it was a big confusing messy weird ass way that it decided to do it.
Spidey 3 same thing. Even more to the point it goes back and re-writes the origin of spiderman or something i can't remember the full details but we all hated the idea raimi had of having sandman be uncle ben's killer yeah I remember. That's just what the hell. So you can see more now why I'm not giving a damn, it's like I've seen how these big studios like to play by now, if they can prioritize toy sales, they will. If they can try to lure fanboys like me to the theater with palps, lando, lots of nerdy stuff, they will. Focus on doing a better made story is not their intention and it wasn't, it's so clear it wasn't. I'm mad about it. Nothing about Carrie fisher's passing prevented them from doing some things better and that's what's so weird to think about... just didn't give a hoot...
Well I'm going to stop giving a hoot, and wow, here I am going on about a bunch of movies that I'll soon put behind me on the massive pile next to the Holiday special and Ewok Adventures. Why the f am I doing this?
What's eating away at me is that, I don't mind bad star wars. I really don't... and this is definitely bad star wars, but I wish it was MORE bad star wars not half way attempt at making a decent entry then a bunch of wink wink wink referrences etc. If you're going to make a bad star wars MAKE a bad star wars, commit to that. It's still enjoyable to watch bad star wars, the muppet show stuff, the parodies, spaceballs, having that star wars feel is what's important, not that it's legit. They just don't understand that and just make it like a suped up quasi attempt at being on Lucas' old movie's level.
Oh get out of here with that. What's fun about JJ's trek movies which will stand at the end of it all as superior to his star wars was that he didn't try to make trek movies as weird as that sounds. He took trek and just decided to make something comic bookish and spunky and new. That's why he was hired for this trilogy yet he completely went the opposite direction and tried to copy and paste the OT because he's scared of going off the rails with it. This dude...
Oh well, what's done is done, and I don't know if I want anymore, but yeah we'll see what's next. I and everyone else is baffled by this film. How can you consider it a conclusion to the story if it's been made clear palps is unkillable. Just ugh with this stuff...
Yeah yunno the clickbaiter parade has begun but in my years of giving a crap about star wars videos and stuff, I just don't feel compelled to this time.
It kinda really is over for me. Oh should I spend 15 minutes watching this review which will likely end up parroting every one elses thoughts or don't waste my time.
Will or won't I go see the movie and be done with it. I've watched so many of these movies in theaters though, I've wasted so much on this kind of stuff I do not want to keep pumping my money away into some clumbsy sequel thing to a beloved franchise.
I think it's time to put a strong foot down and say no more, that's all.
I've been doing the go arounds looking at so many view points on the film its flaws, its good parts, the better approaches to the script, what's been cut. It's all kinda a big last attempt to scramble for something to find that's fine with it. I'll tell you this. Yeah I went to ALL of the spider man movies. And I've yet to see any of the homecoming and stuff movies and I just don't want to. I'm burned out on those films and just tired of them by this point. I don't give a sith about yet another in a damn assembly line of spidey movies, my apologies.
And make no mistake rise of skywalker's like spidey 3 or even better comparison is dark knight rises. I don't hate either of those films, but they undoubtedly dropped the ball. In rises case too it couldn't proceed with a joker storyline at all since the passing of the actor really and that might have impacted things. All things considered it did what it had to do and finished the story set up in batman begins even if it was a big confusing messy weird ass way that it decided to do it.
Spidey 3 same thing. Even more to the point it goes back and re-writes the origin of spiderman or something i can't remember the full details but we all hated the idea raimi had of having sandman be uncle ben's killer yeah I remember. That's just what the hell. So you can see more now why I'm not giving a damn, it's like I've seen how these big studios like to play by now, if they can prioritize toy sales, they will. If they can try to lure fanboys like me to the theater with palps, lando, lots of nerdy stuff, they will. Focus on doing a better made story is not their intention and it wasn't, it's so clear it wasn't. I'm mad about it. Nothing about Carrie fisher's passing prevented them from doing some things better and that's what's so weird to think about... just didn't give a hoot...
Well I'm going to stop giving a hoot, and wow, here I am going on about a bunch of movies that I'll soon put behind me on the massive pile next to the Holiday special and Ewok Adventures. Why the f am I doing this?
What's eating away at me is that, I don't mind bad star wars. I really don't... and this is definitely bad star wars, but I wish it was MORE bad star wars not half way attempt at making a decent entry then a bunch of wink wink wink referrences etc. If you're going to make a bad star wars MAKE a bad star wars, commit to that. It's still enjoyable to watch bad star wars, the muppet show stuff, the parodies, spaceballs, having that star wars feel is what's important, not that it's legit. They just don't understand that and just make it like a suped up quasi attempt at being on Lucas' old movie's level.
Oh get out of here with that. What's fun about JJ's trek movies which will stand at the end of it all as superior to his star wars was that he didn't try to make trek movies as weird as that sounds. He took trek and just decided to make something comic bookish and spunky and new. That's why he was hired for this trilogy yet he completely went the opposite direction and tried to copy and paste the OT because he's scared of going off the rails with it. This dude...
Oh well, what's done is done, and I don't know if I want anymore, but yeah we'll see what's next. I and everyone else is baffled by this film. How can you consider it a conclusion to the story if it's been made clear palps is unkillable. Just ugh with this stuff...
Thursday, December 19, 2019
The hell
Well nobody's lying. I will say that much. Those that hate it outright are right, those that find it good are also right.
It's a square down the middle unashamed fan film with a huge budget.
As a fanboy who's watched fan films about star wars for many years growing up, star wars kid vid, the dorkman vs ryan fight, thumb wars, f'n all that crazy crap we used to do, especially a lost hope film, best example of the fun star wars was in the old days...yes, I'm an oldbie now as we used to call old forum users. I've been around for decades on star wars messageboards, I've seen it all.
I say sure give it a look as a fanboy. I was thinking yanno it'd be too much like TFA with Abrams trying to force feed his lame characters on us but he didn't or was aware we didn't like them and just kept them as respectable if cardboard cut out characters who had to conclude their story somehow.
As an actual movie it's a mess and the best description is muddled. I liken it to John Carter of Mars or whatever else big dumb blockbusters come and go all the time from disney or, yeah most apt comparison is pirates of the caribbean. It's like watching one of those, lots of mediocrity mixed with bits of genius.
The worst thing about it is palpatine, but yanno I get it. JJ said fuck it and the movie's gleefully well aware it's just playing the same note EVERY fan fiction has played and almost winks at us in its lack of originality just to give Ian full reign of palps one last time. I wish it didn't. I wish Ian told JJ no, I respect palpatine too much to turn him into a farce, that kinda thing...
He didn't. He came back, he went and got killed again. The end?
Will I be paying to see this? No. I'm not wrong for wanting to skip off this one. It's a catch it on tv one day and say oh this is nice movie...
It's not worth it to go pay and all that, not to me. It doesn't finish the story and we still have a billion questions about it all in the end, it had ONE JOB, finish the story and I can't say it did.
It's good though if you are a fan and those fan moments are good, very good, otherwise it's like a big clunky semi deranged slog through everything return of the jedi did already.
I'm indifferent to it as a lot of people are. It's neither the best star wars or complete failure, it just is and that's what we've gotten used to with the prequels. I'd have hoped for more than aiming for what the prequels accomplished, that's all the ST as it's called now ended up doing, matching the awkward misfire of the prequel trilogy without anywhere near the creativity and balls Lucas had.
I'm tired too. Just kinda tired of these Indy 4 kinda films where they just do it out of a last chance attitude. Got to not do that, that's all. Leave that shit to fan fiction and comics or whatever.
Oh, I'm just tired now... RotS burned me out never thought I'd end up back on that same old friggin point ever again yet here I am.
As for where this leads or goes now with the franchise. This might have done it no matter how decent a movie it was in spots, this might have caused the pot to boil over and we will see mass rejection of further disney star wars except for their tv and streaming stuff since that's actually quality... All I'm thinking is that they'll need to kinda ignore the ST in the future, ironic too since they've been content ignoring the PT for a while now, there's nothing from the ST I personally care about or need anymore and it will be remembered as about as much as we all remember star trek's sequels and misfires. I'd have hoped star wars was above that. It wasn't.
It's a square down the middle unashamed fan film with a huge budget.
As a fanboy who's watched fan films about star wars for many years growing up, star wars kid vid, the dorkman vs ryan fight, thumb wars, f'n all that crazy crap we used to do, especially a lost hope film, best example of the fun star wars was in the old days...yes, I'm an oldbie now as we used to call old forum users. I've been around for decades on star wars messageboards, I've seen it all.
I say sure give it a look as a fanboy. I was thinking yanno it'd be too much like TFA with Abrams trying to force feed his lame characters on us but he didn't or was aware we didn't like them and just kept them as respectable if cardboard cut out characters who had to conclude their story somehow.
As an actual movie it's a mess and the best description is muddled. I liken it to John Carter of Mars or whatever else big dumb blockbusters come and go all the time from disney or, yeah most apt comparison is pirates of the caribbean. It's like watching one of those, lots of mediocrity mixed with bits of genius.
The worst thing about it is palpatine, but yanno I get it. JJ said fuck it and the movie's gleefully well aware it's just playing the same note EVERY fan fiction has played and almost winks at us in its lack of originality just to give Ian full reign of palps one last time. I wish it didn't. I wish Ian told JJ no, I respect palpatine too much to turn him into a farce, that kinda thing...
He didn't. He came back, he went and got killed again. The end?
Will I be paying to see this? No. I'm not wrong for wanting to skip off this one. It's a catch it on tv one day and say oh this is nice movie...
It's not worth it to go pay and all that, not to me. It doesn't finish the story and we still have a billion questions about it all in the end, it had ONE JOB, finish the story and I can't say it did.
It's good though if you are a fan and those fan moments are good, very good, otherwise it's like a big clunky semi deranged slog through everything return of the jedi did already.
I'm indifferent to it as a lot of people are. It's neither the best star wars or complete failure, it just is and that's what we've gotten used to with the prequels. I'd have hoped for more than aiming for what the prequels accomplished, that's all the ST as it's called now ended up doing, matching the awkward misfire of the prequel trilogy without anywhere near the creativity and balls Lucas had.
I'm tired too. Just kinda tired of these Indy 4 kinda films where they just do it out of a last chance attitude. Got to not do that, that's all. Leave that shit to fan fiction and comics or whatever.
Oh, I'm just tired now... RotS burned me out never thought I'd end up back on that same old friggin point ever again yet here I am.
As for where this leads or goes now with the franchise. This might have done it no matter how decent a movie it was in spots, this might have caused the pot to boil over and we will see mass rejection of further disney star wars except for their tv and streaming stuff since that's actually quality... All I'm thinking is that they'll need to kinda ignore the ST in the future, ironic too since they've been content ignoring the PT for a while now, there's nothing from the ST I personally care about or need anymore and it will be remembered as about as much as we all remember star trek's sequels and misfires. I'd have hoped star wars was above that. It wasn't.
Should I finish what I began?
I'm posting again due to this being it, the final film in the series EVER. I do need to think deeply on my life and how it's gone to lead to this moment. In merely one day the last star wars movie will be out.
I mean I was there when the "real" last star wars movie came along.
Let me tell you about it... it's what I lived for. I felt nothing towards anything in life but waiting for RotS.
In all honesty, RotS was truly more about finishing what I began as a 13 year old watching phantom Menace than wanting to see yet another George Lucas directed star wars. By that time I'd woken up to the reality that the man had his limits and wasn't all powerful and was better suited in producer/writer position.
So I feel a deep sense of deja vu here. All the people going crazy with hyperbole nowadays, it's different than when RotS came out. Back then we all didn't have this haterade mentality because we were sad. This was it, 6 films, no more. We're done. And in that sense RotS was a true celebratory film overall and it filled that purpose. It was bloated, a mess, full of fan service nonsense, yet it was lucas making star wars for the last time and it was fun decent film so it was celebrated and we relished in the moment a moment we honestly didn't believe we'd see. The prequels are a failure on many fronts but a goddamn fascinating journey and for that I'll always be greatful.
Can I look at TroS that way too? Should I? Lucas is not involved, this is essentially like making a big deal out of the latest EU thing or tv show with no Lucas input or anything.
I've been going over the film like a madman trying to gauge the thoughts on it and where they will sync with mine.
I'm getting PT feelings all over this film, too hollow not well planned, the irony is incredible. So it's basically a star wars prequel level film? Is it wrong for being that?
Can you legitimately argue a star wars film is wrong for being too close to something Lucas himself would have made? Oh man what a can of worms I've opened.
Nothing is drawing me to go see it. Read a little further on lando's role, apparently not that involved? not that important, just there to say hello since they neglected him? Oh get out of here with that shit.
I'm deeply unmoved by the cast and characters. They are props and toys in a video game level that is JJ's action scenes. Got no interest in their story yet they're constantly pimped in the films as if they matter and are vital, so nuts. And yeah that's why they were background wallpaper in TLJ which was made by a person who's kinda an actual film maker not a toy seller. Sorry for that movie, always reading some jerkass pretending it's a massive disaster or something. I'm not sure what's motivating those people, rival studio plants or something, oh yeah we're there these days, corporate politics is going on all the time now online, welcome to this backwards ass day and age.
It's like I'm at war with myself. Yet again, Ian is returning one last time as Emp, that's what was great about RotS and here we are again and apparently he's still alive or something or whatever, but he's half why the prequels were any good, his story his brilliant perfect portrayal of the emp. Hard not to want to see him again all things considered, essentially he's the only reason many will want to go see this thing. But that story of the emp is so done right?
Yeah I have to agree, would have been more ballsy to go a new direction with it, yunno. Don't do the emp story retread, make it about something which I thought it was gonna do from the trailers, Rey going dark side. Now that would have been a fascinating film. Not this safety net thing they hobbled together by committee Star Wars by commitee... Come the hell on, Padme said she doesn't like those in Phantom Menace, Jesus watch the movies...
What does disney care, they want money right? People are dumb right? Laser Swords, lots of cool cgi, billions in the bank, done.
Ok, yanno what, I'm not gonna do it. I'm not supporting it. I want them to finally reconsider the franchise they're fucking around with. This ain't matrix, spidey, xmen, transformers. This ain't men in black. This ain't even Star Trek. It's the Holy God of all Summer Blockbusters. You have to care.
Ok I'll compromise I guess, bootleg the damn thing watch a bit, if it's not the trainwreck it's being made to be by jackass trolls in many comment sections then I'll feel bad for bootlegging it (yeah shocker I'm not totally evil) and pay and go collect the stub. It's just let me say this and then you'll understand what's my reason. I paid for a JJ star wars already. It was ass. I paid for that. I feel my money for TLJ was more justified than, hell my money for Avatar was more justified than that goddamn flimsy film.
Oh I mean come on, I paid for dark fate and genysis, I'm gonna bootleg away, it's all going to balance out, come on...
I mean I was there when the "real" last star wars movie came along.
Let me tell you about it... it's what I lived for. I felt nothing towards anything in life but waiting for RotS.
In all honesty, RotS was truly more about finishing what I began as a 13 year old watching phantom Menace than wanting to see yet another George Lucas directed star wars. By that time I'd woken up to the reality that the man had his limits and wasn't all powerful and was better suited in producer/writer position.
So I feel a deep sense of deja vu here. All the people going crazy with hyperbole nowadays, it's different than when RotS came out. Back then we all didn't have this haterade mentality because we were sad. This was it, 6 films, no more. We're done. And in that sense RotS was a true celebratory film overall and it filled that purpose. It was bloated, a mess, full of fan service nonsense, yet it was lucas making star wars for the last time and it was fun decent film so it was celebrated and we relished in the moment a moment we honestly didn't believe we'd see. The prequels are a failure on many fronts but a goddamn fascinating journey and for that I'll always be greatful.
Can I look at TroS that way too? Should I? Lucas is not involved, this is essentially like making a big deal out of the latest EU thing or tv show with no Lucas input or anything.
I've been going over the film like a madman trying to gauge the thoughts on it and where they will sync with mine.
I'm getting PT feelings all over this film, too hollow not well planned, the irony is incredible. So it's basically a star wars prequel level film? Is it wrong for being that?
Can you legitimately argue a star wars film is wrong for being too close to something Lucas himself would have made? Oh man what a can of worms I've opened.
Nothing is drawing me to go see it. Read a little further on lando's role, apparently not that involved? not that important, just there to say hello since they neglected him? Oh get out of here with that shit.
I'm deeply unmoved by the cast and characters. They are props and toys in a video game level that is JJ's action scenes. Got no interest in their story yet they're constantly pimped in the films as if they matter and are vital, so nuts. And yeah that's why they were background wallpaper in TLJ which was made by a person who's kinda an actual film maker not a toy seller. Sorry for that movie, always reading some jerkass pretending it's a massive disaster or something. I'm not sure what's motivating those people, rival studio plants or something, oh yeah we're there these days, corporate politics is going on all the time now online, welcome to this backwards ass day and age.
It's like I'm at war with myself. Yet again, Ian is returning one last time as Emp, that's what was great about RotS and here we are again and apparently he's still alive or something or whatever, but he's half why the prequels were any good, his story his brilliant perfect portrayal of the emp. Hard not to want to see him again all things considered, essentially he's the only reason many will want to go see this thing. But that story of the emp is so done right?
Yeah I have to agree, would have been more ballsy to go a new direction with it, yunno. Don't do the emp story retread, make it about something which I thought it was gonna do from the trailers, Rey going dark side. Now that would have been a fascinating film. Not this safety net thing they hobbled together by committee Star Wars by commitee... Come the hell on, Padme said she doesn't like those in Phantom Menace, Jesus watch the movies...
What does disney care, they want money right? People are dumb right? Laser Swords, lots of cool cgi, billions in the bank, done.
Ok, yanno what, I'm not gonna do it. I'm not supporting it. I want them to finally reconsider the franchise they're fucking around with. This ain't matrix, spidey, xmen, transformers. This ain't men in black. This ain't even Star Trek. It's the Holy God of all Summer Blockbusters. You have to care.
Ok I'll compromise I guess, bootleg the damn thing watch a bit, if it's not the trainwreck it's being made to be by jackass trolls in many comment sections then I'll feel bad for bootlegging it (yeah shocker I'm not totally evil) and pay and go collect the stub. It's just let me say this and then you'll understand what's my reason. I paid for a JJ star wars already. It was ass. I paid for that. I feel my money for TLJ was more justified than, hell my money for Avatar was more justified than that goddamn flimsy film.
Oh I mean come on, I paid for dark fate and genysis, I'm gonna bootleg away, it's all going to balance out, come on...
Tuesday, December 17, 2019
Star Words
read up on the movie's premiere and initial thoughts or whatever... but first tho
Got to say boy do people have a lot of time on their hands or what. The mob hit job on The last Jedi that's going on is just weird shit to read and see continue for apparently years. I began thinking, oh that's just cute some bitch on youtube is acting hyperbolic and fake ranting about the movie like it hurt her personally, then I see this same fake rage bullshit repeated endlessly for months, now going years. What a sad bunch of lonely pathetic people in this world taking massive shits on all of us through their computers.... oh my... should have kept video uploading the snail's pace that it used to be... now it's become a shitstorm.
Yeah I mean, ok, you want to accomplish what exactly? Clickbait? Sad motherfuckers...
Oh you're going to see the clickbaiter army out in full force in regards to this movie give it a few weeks. OMG (takes time to photoshop arrow pointing at something because it's whut de udder vidz dew) new movie has a thing that explains a thing or something, proceeds to ramble about something that's blatantly obvious.
I'm sorry but it's just wow, I don't know what to say, there's a lot of just moronic crap going on in the internet today that's pointless and the people making these dumbass vids can all go screw off please. Nobody needs the clickbait scams, get a damn job.
I've kinda spoiled the movie for myself I guess, I mean the spoilers I read I more or less figured out already from what I've predicted. Fuck, I don't know, on the fence about seeing it, and considering nothing I expected to happen is going to go forward, why spend money on it...
Basically it's being viewed as a JJ abrams movie that's more in line with TFA and that's a huge turn off. But what did you expect... he's JJ Abrams, he's a competent workman director. What the f.
I mean I don't know Lando's fate, I did not spoil that. I do know kylo's fate but not the specifics of it.
I have yet to understand much about palpatine's story but his connectiong to Rey is indeed a major dissappointment to me. And it's like weird that that's only NOW becoming significant, very messy writing I guess.
overall I'm sorry. I'm sorry for myself for believing it was going to go anywhere great. I hyped myself up too much. It's all going to land on fan film territory in the end. Take it or leave it I guess.
And that's the question, go pay big money for a fan film made to make money off of the legit legendary star wars brand name? Oooooh dare I not.... dare I stay loyal to Lucas my God.
I love star wars. It is the franchise that holds the greatest meaning to me. Period.
I don't want to support this Space Balls thing. It's tough to say that but it's not star wars and it most likely never will be looked upon as such... I'll pack up and step out, so sorry to say that. ;/
You were unbalanced. Bested by a franchise that never held a Snoke. You FAILED.
Got to say boy do people have a lot of time on their hands or what. The mob hit job on The last Jedi that's going on is just weird shit to read and see continue for apparently years. I began thinking, oh that's just cute some bitch on youtube is acting hyperbolic and fake ranting about the movie like it hurt her personally, then I see this same fake rage bullshit repeated endlessly for months, now going years. What a sad bunch of lonely pathetic people in this world taking massive shits on all of us through their computers.... oh my... should have kept video uploading the snail's pace that it used to be... now it's become a shitstorm.
Yeah I mean, ok, you want to accomplish what exactly? Clickbait? Sad motherfuckers...
Oh you're going to see the clickbaiter army out in full force in regards to this movie give it a few weeks. OMG (takes time to photoshop arrow pointing at something because it's whut de udder vidz dew) new movie has a thing that explains a thing or something, proceeds to ramble about something that's blatantly obvious.
I'm sorry but it's just wow, I don't know what to say, there's a lot of just moronic crap going on in the internet today that's pointless and the people making these dumbass vids can all go screw off please. Nobody needs the clickbait scams, get a damn job.
I've kinda spoiled the movie for myself I guess, I mean the spoilers I read I more or less figured out already from what I've predicted. Fuck, I don't know, on the fence about seeing it, and considering nothing I expected to happen is going to go forward, why spend money on it...
Basically it's being viewed as a JJ abrams movie that's more in line with TFA and that's a huge turn off. But what did you expect... he's JJ Abrams, he's a competent workman director. What the f.
I mean I don't know Lando's fate, I did not spoil that. I do know kylo's fate but not the specifics of it.
I have yet to understand much about palpatine's story but his connectiong to Rey is indeed a major dissappointment to me. And it's like weird that that's only NOW becoming significant, very messy writing I guess.
overall I'm sorry. I'm sorry for myself for believing it was going to go anywhere great. I hyped myself up too much. It's all going to land on fan film territory in the end. Take it or leave it I guess.
And that's the question, go pay big money for a fan film made to make money off of the legit legendary star wars brand name? Oooooh dare I not.... dare I stay loyal to Lucas my God.
I love star wars. It is the franchise that holds the greatest meaning to me. Period.
I don't want to support this Space Balls thing. It's tough to say that but it's not star wars and it most likely never will be looked upon as such... I'll pack up and step out, so sorry to say that. ;/
You were unbalanced. Bested by a franchise that never held a Snoke. You FAILED.
Saturday, December 14, 2019
crazy huh
I really should ignore twitter, I tell myself a lot of things. We as a society today are far too innundated with information. I shouldn't even talk about it, I left that world behind and I try my best not to concern myself with whatever the blue farts is happening in today's kid-world but it's kinda interesting to look at it and think about it. I got put through fight club that was the school system growing up. I absolutely think it's a rancid waste of time and only helps turn normal people crazy and think school has got to be demolished and forgotten as the ancient obsolete useless thing that it truly is. It will, times have changed drastically, we can do school digitally if necessary, whatever. Just don't stuff young rowdy people in a box for hours and hope that works, it's as they say, prison-lite... I don't condone that, and I've had my problems with it, but living life making money, being around big boobed females at work who I could enjoy looking at instead of a bunch of dumbass dipshits, it's been a smarter way to live.
So what's got my interest today, some white boy on a bus getting into fights with some girls. I'll tell you this from my perspective as a kid going to school on the daily florida bus. Yes, it's happened to me. White kids down there are going to playfully push the black kid's buttons every chance they get and do the whole subtle racism crap. I mean, it's the reality. I knew kids of all colors going to school in florida, some white kids were indifferent to the racism they witnessed, didn't give a fuck about it and I glanced over to one kid who basically gave me a "sorry about them" look when two girls were picking on me on the bus.
You think it's a vid about some innocent boy being jumped by the gangster girl club or some shit (that's another point to make, how hard can a f'n girl even hit...) but the interweb storm that's being blown up over this does get to me.
Stuff like this happeneds on the daily in those buses at those schools. Back in my ancient ass times, we just didn't film it, and you know what? Yes I experienced stupidity from some white kids at school in florida. Guess what? I'm here, I'm going about my life. It didn't own my existence. Shit like this happens then people realize life is bigger than that one day at school...
I'm sad we've devolved into this media tribal society bullshit, sad... lost a lot of that 'tough it out' persona we used to believe in or at least I did.
I hope it doesn't go over the deep end and we do not become too tribal and lacking the ability to have common sense or maybe we're already there, I don't honestly know. Look at the blow up over the stuff it makes me think a lot of things. Ok this looks bad, the kkk just got their new recruitment video...
That too is something that bothers me, because it impacts me. Every time these damn things happen blacks behaving badly or whatever, it's going to get magnified and looked at as reflective of all blacks. No two black people are the same. get that shit through your skulls. There is no "black people" we're individuals and crap just like you.
Anyway I felt sorry for the kid who got whooped by some girls then I saw the other video the one they were'nt showing where apparently he's up to no good and harassing the girls months prior so I'm like, oh there it is. It's about something deeper. I mean when I got into fights, it's me fighting back against some idiot who's got his brain on backwards, I can't say what the truth is but if you just started recording with me going nuts on some jackass you'd think I was the bad guy, all I'm gonna say. I don't care that much anyway they'll all forget that dumbass school that dumbass bus and that dumbass day years from now... moving on...
As for what the hell I'm up to, got some plans for things I want to do, still trying to study more martial arts and improve. I'm not even doing it because of the action expo believe it or not, easy to think that but I've been into it since forever, just didn't have the knowledge about what to do which thankfully they have quite a lot of info on online.
It's tough. There will be pain. I'm wondering to myself how much I can take, but I'd like to be able to f'n do a really sweet sequel to static shock or a last dragon thing with actual great looking fighting so I'm training towards that.
That's the goal, get into beast mode type of shape, that's the end goal.
Piano is coming along thanks to my discovery that memorizing things comes through retrieval not repetition.
Look it up, it's true. Your mind simply put prioritizes what it "needs" so you have to trick your bain into thinking you need to remember something.
That's it, lastly will I be checking out rise of skywalker? I don't think I will. Unless it's chalked up to be the second coming, I know what JJ is capable of and I'm not into what he can do, no.
I don't care about the new cast, don't really want to continue supporting this limp meh series. Mandalorian is great tho. Should release that in theaters, call it a day.
So what's got my interest today, some white boy on a bus getting into fights with some girls. I'll tell you this from my perspective as a kid going to school on the daily florida bus. Yes, it's happened to me. White kids down there are going to playfully push the black kid's buttons every chance they get and do the whole subtle racism crap. I mean, it's the reality. I knew kids of all colors going to school in florida, some white kids were indifferent to the racism they witnessed, didn't give a fuck about it and I glanced over to one kid who basically gave me a "sorry about them" look when two girls were picking on me on the bus.
You think it's a vid about some innocent boy being jumped by the gangster girl club or some shit (that's another point to make, how hard can a f'n girl even hit...) but the interweb storm that's being blown up over this does get to me.
Stuff like this happeneds on the daily in those buses at those schools. Back in my ancient ass times, we just didn't film it, and you know what? Yes I experienced stupidity from some white kids at school in florida. Guess what? I'm here, I'm going about my life. It didn't own my existence. Shit like this happens then people realize life is bigger than that one day at school...
I'm sad we've devolved into this media tribal society bullshit, sad... lost a lot of that 'tough it out' persona we used to believe in or at least I did.
I hope it doesn't go over the deep end and we do not become too tribal and lacking the ability to have common sense or maybe we're already there, I don't honestly know. Look at the blow up over the stuff it makes me think a lot of things. Ok this looks bad, the kkk just got their new recruitment video...
That too is something that bothers me, because it impacts me. Every time these damn things happen blacks behaving badly or whatever, it's going to get magnified and looked at as reflective of all blacks. No two black people are the same. get that shit through your skulls. There is no "black people" we're individuals and crap just like you.
Anyway I felt sorry for the kid who got whooped by some girls then I saw the other video the one they were'nt showing where apparently he's up to no good and harassing the girls months prior so I'm like, oh there it is. It's about something deeper. I mean when I got into fights, it's me fighting back against some idiot who's got his brain on backwards, I can't say what the truth is but if you just started recording with me going nuts on some jackass you'd think I was the bad guy, all I'm gonna say. I don't care that much anyway they'll all forget that dumbass school that dumbass bus and that dumbass day years from now... moving on...
As for what the hell I'm up to, got some plans for things I want to do, still trying to study more martial arts and improve. I'm not even doing it because of the action expo believe it or not, easy to think that but I've been into it since forever, just didn't have the knowledge about what to do which thankfully they have quite a lot of info on online.
It's tough. There will be pain. I'm wondering to myself how much I can take, but I'd like to be able to f'n do a really sweet sequel to static shock or a last dragon thing with actual great looking fighting so I'm training towards that.
That's the goal, get into beast mode type of shape, that's the end goal.
Piano is coming along thanks to my discovery that memorizing things comes through retrieval not repetition.
Look it up, it's true. Your mind simply put prioritizes what it "needs" so you have to trick your bain into thinking you need to remember something.
That's it, lastly will I be checking out rise of skywalker? I don't think I will. Unless it's chalked up to be the second coming, I know what JJ is capable of and I'm not into what he can do, no.
I don't care about the new cast, don't really want to continue supporting this limp meh series. Mandalorian is great tho. Should release that in theaters, call it a day.
Monday, December 9, 2019
Ghostbusters Trek Next Generation
shit just got real...
New actual sequel to the ghostbusters (Ghostbusters 2 was my first ever movie EVER if I haven't made that clear)
I'm actually down for this, though it has some issues.
The ecto 1 was augmented in GB2 so it wouldn't look like that in the trailer, they've obviously got some explaining to do on that front.
But their heart is in the right place and hopefully this isn't going to be a stupid cash grab based on the franchise name alone.
Would love to get more info about it who's doing what, etc. Why the flying bananas would Egon store nuclear powered proton packs and ghost equipment in a farm house. He's a genius, he'd build an underground storage or something, just awkward. I guess I can tear the trailer apart all day, I'll try to focus on the positives.
It's got a bit of that goonies essence, so I'm guess they wanted goonies meets stranger things, meets ghostbusters, could work but gb comes down to characters. You can't have gb without really good characters that are iconic, and I'm yet to view the new crew that way.
Let's all be honest with ourselves this is Extreme GB the movie they're making. It's the same plot, and the new girl gb is essentially a rework of the kylie character. Out of the wonky mess that was EGB, Kylie worked well for me. Her goth girl felt organic to the gb franchise and making her egon's grand daughter would have been perfectly in line. I mean it's interesting at least, yeah they're going with a female gb, she does seem a lot like kylie so if that's sthe inspiration, perfect. No opinion on the other kids have no clue who the f they are.
And they have to nail that. Often with these next gen movies they suck dragon ballz at making the characters worth shit, just being honest. If they don't stick the landing on that, it's gonna be a big fail.
Not very much humor, I'm trying to focus on the positive, but they do remember it's a comedy right? Gotta show us it's full of jokes too. I'm on the fence, but hopeful in the end. GB matters to me, I want them to do it right, and maybe make this into something bigger, get gb back on top of the world again.
New actual sequel to the ghostbusters (Ghostbusters 2 was my first ever movie EVER if I haven't made that clear)
I'm actually down for this, though it has some issues.
The ecto 1 was augmented in GB2 so it wouldn't look like that in the trailer, they've obviously got some explaining to do on that front.
But their heart is in the right place and hopefully this isn't going to be a stupid cash grab based on the franchise name alone.
Would love to get more info about it who's doing what, etc. Why the flying bananas would Egon store nuclear powered proton packs and ghost equipment in a farm house. He's a genius, he'd build an underground storage or something, just awkward. I guess I can tear the trailer apart all day, I'll try to focus on the positives.
It's got a bit of that goonies essence, so I'm guess they wanted goonies meets stranger things, meets ghostbusters, could work but gb comes down to characters. You can't have gb without really good characters that are iconic, and I'm yet to view the new crew that way.
Let's all be honest with ourselves this is Extreme GB the movie they're making. It's the same plot, and the new girl gb is essentially a rework of the kylie character. Out of the wonky mess that was EGB, Kylie worked well for me. Her goth girl felt organic to the gb franchise and making her egon's grand daughter would have been perfectly in line. I mean it's interesting at least, yeah they're going with a female gb, she does seem a lot like kylie so if that's sthe inspiration, perfect. No opinion on the other kids have no clue who the f they are.
And they have to nail that. Often with these next gen movies they suck dragon ballz at making the characters worth shit, just being honest. If they don't stick the landing on that, it's gonna be a big fail.
Not very much humor, I'm trying to focus on the positive, but they do remember it's a comedy right? Gotta show us it's full of jokes too. I'm on the fence, but hopeful in the end. GB matters to me, I want them to do it right, and maybe make this into something bigger, get gb back on top of the world again.
Wednesday, December 4, 2019
shenmue getting ripped all day
Kinda sad about it, I mean anyone who's somewhat knowledgeable about pc games knows hackers will rip prettymuch any game some point or emulate it, only a matter of time and persistence. So of course shenmue is on all the piracy sites leaving no one a true reason to purchase it. I will out of loyalty but that sucks, its sales are doing poor numbers since no one needs to buy it, and I do blame the way pirates do things, sure but also blame the company for not making an online fighter component built into shenmue that would force you to need a real copy for you to get to enjoy it, or just allow people to rent the game for a few days. I rented shenmue 1 from blockbuster played it beat it, gave it back afterwards, do the same with this one. I hope it is rentable or part of a rent service, let me take a look...
Only on ps4 which can't be ripped anyway, so there you have it, stepped on their own toes by not trying to prevent piracy hard enough. Oh that's crazy stuff. Shenmue 3 might be the last one we get forever since who's going to want to support non profit game making...
It shouldn't come down to backyard crowd funded indie game level nonsense for shenmue, that's just nonsense. It's the game that gave birth to a whole generation of open world games, we'd simply not have them all if shenmue didn't attempt the giant leap to the next level.
Just sayin, it's messed up stuff... I think down the line it'll turn a profit for sure, right now considering what has been said about it and it's non-advancement of the plot, then yeah maybe begging 60 bucks for it is outrageous. You can find better for that money. It's a dif world now, yanno. Used to be some collectors value to owning the actual physical copy of the game etc. Nice box art, inserts, sometimes a full poster or map. So the full 50 dollar price had some kind of meaning to it, but to pay that much for a download, absolute nonsense.
Biggest mistake I've personally made paying full price for both star wars games I got. I mean wow, had no clue BF2 would be a giant mess of a game with constant updates and tweaks and essentially they released a beta kept developing the game month after month trying to fix the messy garbage they put out. Disgraceful and that's without hyperbole, they've been nothing but complete clowns in charge of a massive star wars game, and I dread playing it, just waiting for the next glitch or unbalanced unfair thing.
So it's understandable why people would pirate it first, there's no demo out to get to try it. We have games that are relased full premium deluxe price that are only half finished, no one wants to waste their money on these failures anymore. Apparently shenmue is not fully cooked either with many finding it to be less than fun to slug through than typical... wow, goddamn, don't know how I'm going to wait until the price drops but that's when I'll buy it, I'm not pulling down the big bucks so forget it, no full price for me and it's just hilarious to watch the prices for these games drop to like nothing dollars after initially selling for some inflated amount...
So the trial and the stuff going on and the impeachment and the thousandth thing that will finally get rid of this dumbass in charge of nukes.... how's this all coming along? As usual I find myself feeling like there's a real chance to get rid of this big fart but then those who have the option slip and miss the target as I actually kinda thought would happen, it did. Won't go into details but they're tripping over themselves rather than just being careful enough not to give the bad guys a foot to stand on in this stuff. Oh well, press on, eh. I don't have much knowledge about things, but yeah I do think people with power need to be checked and balanced, if they step out of line, do something... simple.
Haven't we had enough of this by now, the incompetence, the lies, the fake pictures of themself on top of rocky? When's this simpsons episode going to be over... It's not funny. The douche bag's never had someone smack him in the face in his life and tell him to fucking behave. So it's time to do it now.
Only on ps4 which can't be ripped anyway, so there you have it, stepped on their own toes by not trying to prevent piracy hard enough. Oh that's crazy stuff. Shenmue 3 might be the last one we get forever since who's going to want to support non profit game making...
It shouldn't come down to backyard crowd funded indie game level nonsense for shenmue, that's just nonsense. It's the game that gave birth to a whole generation of open world games, we'd simply not have them all if shenmue didn't attempt the giant leap to the next level.
Just sayin, it's messed up stuff... I think down the line it'll turn a profit for sure, right now considering what has been said about it and it's non-advancement of the plot, then yeah maybe begging 60 bucks for it is outrageous. You can find better for that money. It's a dif world now, yanno. Used to be some collectors value to owning the actual physical copy of the game etc. Nice box art, inserts, sometimes a full poster or map. So the full 50 dollar price had some kind of meaning to it, but to pay that much for a download, absolute nonsense.
Biggest mistake I've personally made paying full price for both star wars games I got. I mean wow, had no clue BF2 would be a giant mess of a game with constant updates and tweaks and essentially they released a beta kept developing the game month after month trying to fix the messy garbage they put out. Disgraceful and that's without hyperbole, they've been nothing but complete clowns in charge of a massive star wars game, and I dread playing it, just waiting for the next glitch or unbalanced unfair thing.
So it's understandable why people would pirate it first, there's no demo out to get to try it. We have games that are relased full premium deluxe price that are only half finished, no one wants to waste their money on these failures anymore. Apparently shenmue is not fully cooked either with many finding it to be less than fun to slug through than typical... wow, goddamn, don't know how I'm going to wait until the price drops but that's when I'll buy it, I'm not pulling down the big bucks so forget it, no full price for me and it's just hilarious to watch the prices for these games drop to like nothing dollars after initially selling for some inflated amount...
So the trial and the stuff going on and the impeachment and the thousandth thing that will finally get rid of this dumbass in charge of nukes.... how's this all coming along? As usual I find myself feeling like there's a real chance to get rid of this big fart but then those who have the option slip and miss the target as I actually kinda thought would happen, it did. Won't go into details but they're tripping over themselves rather than just being careful enough not to give the bad guys a foot to stand on in this stuff. Oh well, press on, eh. I don't have much knowledge about things, but yeah I do think people with power need to be checked and balanced, if they step out of line, do something... simple.
Haven't we had enough of this by now, the incompetence, the lies, the fake pictures of themself on top of rocky? When's this simpsons episode going to be over... It's not funny. The douche bag's never had someone smack him in the face in his life and tell him to fucking behave. So it's time to do it now.
Sunday, December 1, 2019
could worrrk
got neck pain for some reason, gonna see about getting one of those damn my pillows, that shit might work...
watching kung fu movies now that I'm back into the habit these days and getting back into martial arts. I did work very hard as a kid at learning some stuff so to pin me as some complete scrub when it comes to it is just not gonna phase me one bit. I did the best I could with no formal training. Not my fault life went the way it did for me or i'd have done much more.
So it's apparently quite the skill takes years to master that stuff probably a waste to try to get good at this point as I'm getting all old and such.
Don't know the answer to that, maybe so. Maybe I'm over the hill... don't want to believe it...
Too old to become a jedi, yes, yes...
heh, well besides my lingering doubts, I've made some progress with my ambitions to get a functioning stream of star wars working on one of these bigger tvs. I was just stumped about what method to employ, buy a new tv box stream through that, find a damn way to wire a lan line to the tv some how and hook up a cheapy cheap tv box or something... It's not just battlefront I want to do, it's the optimum streaming. I mean if I want tv channels to watch I can just find a streaming site, but optimum ap is legit, we're paying for it, no reason not to just use that and I do like just leaving it running and casually browsing chans. works perfect on my phone, no wifi drops, great picture, watch lots of stuff, get the news, excellent.
So I was thinking well, if I can't hook up a wifi dongle to the tv box (native wifi is a mess), oh boy I know, just use the phone to act as a wifi dongle... turns out it's "possible" but no one, NO ONE, has made a simple tool to just hack it all together and just run... I mean, the only one out there is 10 dollars and I can't even test it to know if it's real, but yeah so far I've come across complicated elite level coding crap to do it, and a paid app that's supposedly going to do it, something so simple and useful as hooking up your phone through usb to a tablet or whatever and tether them is a giant big huge leap to get done and will take a whole course in android and linux coding to figure it out... but eh, don't worry we got ya covered if you want to change your stupid battery icon or whatever, that crap they spent time working on...
sad to say the hacker scene is absolutely backwards full of nonsense. Like just the fact they don't put a simple on off button on these tv box things is clue number one they have their heads up their ass so firmly... wish I did some better research before purchasing one in such haste, it has a billion problems and just outright isn't made for much more than earning a cheap buck, but I do like that I can carry a gazillion movies and shows anywhere and it can emulate and run al ot of things so as much as it's a piece of garbage it's a useful piece of garbage that keeps me somewhat sane as I go along through a boring day...
Then I remembered i read a site say something about hooking the display up through usb and it just floored me that I didn't realize it already... so stupid. Just use the phone as a tv box, that's all these f'n tv boxes are, they're phones without the phone part.
So I feel like I'm done, right, i got the answer to my problems and yeah yanno it's over, no more bull shit.
well some more bull shit left for sure, but not too bad. I will be using my spare phone to act as a tv box, see how that works. I've already played a bit of steamlink on it and it ran very well at least for a game in the steam library, for battlefront, something got messed up. Don't know if it'll be any good at running non-steam games. Stupid world we live in where every game is bound to different crap.
Had no idea but should have expected that the simple act of using a phone's usb port to convert it to hdmi would be a confounding mess as well. with two different competing technologies trying to essentially do the same shit and different phones requiring one or the other, such asinine garbage. But that's electronics.
If this thing i bought works, which I doubt, we're in good shape anyway. Bought a usb ethernet adaptor too since in my mind, it's a good idea to own one in general and I can just get this darn thing to not be entirely a sad piece of malfunctioning junk and be able to use it to watch cable. The thought crosses to indeed see if there's some kind of plug and play functionality with a wifi dongle but for the love of GOD no one's made it clear in plain text which dongles work with it, it's a giant fucktrip to figure out what the hell you should get and sad sad sad to struggle reading through a bunch of dumbass threads about nothing and go around in circles with people saying essentially "maybe" "depends" fuuuuuuuuuuck me brother, just piss off if you have nothing concrete or substantial to add. Sucks to see so many people dedicated to being pointless and annoying on boards out there.
watching kung fu movies now that I'm back into the habit these days and getting back into martial arts. I did work very hard as a kid at learning some stuff so to pin me as some complete scrub when it comes to it is just not gonna phase me one bit. I did the best I could with no formal training. Not my fault life went the way it did for me or i'd have done much more.
So it's apparently quite the skill takes years to master that stuff probably a waste to try to get good at this point as I'm getting all old and such.
Don't know the answer to that, maybe so. Maybe I'm over the hill... don't want to believe it...
Too old to become a jedi, yes, yes...
heh, well besides my lingering doubts, I've made some progress with my ambitions to get a functioning stream of star wars working on one of these bigger tvs. I was just stumped about what method to employ, buy a new tv box stream through that, find a damn way to wire a lan line to the tv some how and hook up a cheapy cheap tv box or something... It's not just battlefront I want to do, it's the optimum streaming. I mean if I want tv channels to watch I can just find a streaming site, but optimum ap is legit, we're paying for it, no reason not to just use that and I do like just leaving it running and casually browsing chans. works perfect on my phone, no wifi drops, great picture, watch lots of stuff, get the news, excellent.
So I was thinking well, if I can't hook up a wifi dongle to the tv box (native wifi is a mess), oh boy I know, just use the phone to act as a wifi dongle... turns out it's "possible" but no one, NO ONE, has made a simple tool to just hack it all together and just run... I mean, the only one out there is 10 dollars and I can't even test it to know if it's real, but yeah so far I've come across complicated elite level coding crap to do it, and a paid app that's supposedly going to do it, something so simple and useful as hooking up your phone through usb to a tablet or whatever and tether them is a giant big huge leap to get done and will take a whole course in android and linux coding to figure it out... but eh, don't worry we got ya covered if you want to change your stupid battery icon or whatever, that crap they spent time working on...
sad to say the hacker scene is absolutely backwards full of nonsense. Like just the fact they don't put a simple on off button on these tv box things is clue number one they have their heads up their ass so firmly... wish I did some better research before purchasing one in such haste, it has a billion problems and just outright isn't made for much more than earning a cheap buck, but I do like that I can carry a gazillion movies and shows anywhere and it can emulate and run al ot of things so as much as it's a piece of garbage it's a useful piece of garbage that keeps me somewhat sane as I go along through a boring day...
Then I remembered i read a site say something about hooking the display up through usb and it just floored me that I didn't realize it already... so stupid. Just use the phone as a tv box, that's all these f'n tv boxes are, they're phones without the phone part.
So I feel like I'm done, right, i got the answer to my problems and yeah yanno it's over, no more bull shit.
well some more bull shit left for sure, but not too bad. I will be using my spare phone to act as a tv box, see how that works. I've already played a bit of steamlink on it and it ran very well at least for a game in the steam library, for battlefront, something got messed up. Don't know if it'll be any good at running non-steam games. Stupid world we live in where every game is bound to different crap.
Had no idea but should have expected that the simple act of using a phone's usb port to convert it to hdmi would be a confounding mess as well. with two different competing technologies trying to essentially do the same shit and different phones requiring one or the other, such asinine garbage. But that's electronics.
If this thing i bought works, which I doubt, we're in good shape anyway. Bought a usb ethernet adaptor too since in my mind, it's a good idea to own one in general and I can just get this darn thing to not be entirely a sad piece of malfunctioning junk and be able to use it to watch cable. The thought crosses to indeed see if there's some kind of plug and play functionality with a wifi dongle but for the love of GOD no one's made it clear in plain text which dongles work with it, it's a giant fucktrip to figure out what the hell you should get and sad sad sad to struggle reading through a bunch of dumbass threads about nothing and go around in circles with people saying essentially "maybe" "depends" fuuuuuuuuuuck me brother, just piss off if you have nothing concrete or substantial to add. Sucks to see so many people dedicated to being pointless and annoying on boards out there.
Friday, November 29, 2019
seems to be fine
Did some extensive testing to find out if the touchpad would stay stable, no seems to be good...
Going to keep an eye on it if it decides to go bonkers in the future. Reading about this bios update seems like as per usual big bad HP has actually broken things in its new bios so be cautious if you're on the newer models. I don't know if they did any underhanded changes to mine that might be throttling the cpu too much as others have made apparent in theirs.
Yikes, hate when the updates aren't tested by companies, they got to get their crap together, do better.
What's the plan from here forward for me. I don't know, but I want to get my voice in on the Last Dragon thing they're making. I might make my own Last Dragon video... Get that going... Got ideas for it anyway. Lots of tight close ups... I think that's a lost art. Today's movies are about showing off expensive sets, cgi, just putting on a big circus rather than the older more intimate way films were once done, especially 80s films. Like me personally it does aggravate to watch films and it's like 90% talking heads and no attempt at artistry.
Some stuff brewing for us Last Dragon fans... lots of good stuff that I hope to see go through and when I look out at the world today, it's like, there's nothing really like super upbeat and positive to kinda unite people these days. Nothing. Life is dead as a bag of dirt.
Am I going to get anywhere with my physical training and crap that i do these days. I mean I am having trouble to be honest. Nice to lose weight hard to stay motivated to lose it, hard to get off the ass and go stretch and get the blood flowing since I do indeed want to sit here and it's friggin freezing so it's not like it's good conditions!
But I try. It's like, yeah, got that drive in me to get in best shape possible before you lose it that kinda shit... I always dreamed of being big and jacked, I just never had the time to pursue it full on...
Might just get huge, should be interesting to finally fullfill that...
What else, yeah shenmue how's that going for people. I don't know... want to really trial the game before buying it. They really should let us fans f around in it for a while before purchasing it... see if we like it.
It's as I said it was. It's done like an old 90s game and todays' generation can't stomach having to deal with a non-compromising tough unforgiving DO or DIE kind of game that we got like water back in those days...
Am I right?
I kinda am interested in the challenge see if I can take the pounding that game has in store, but some thigns are putting me off. Some claiming stuff is too boring to do, which if you play shenmue, that's the series so what the hell did you think it'd be? Like right now I am exausted beyond wanting to go and screw around more in shenmue 2, it's a massive game so much to go through, i need to literally re-energize before tackling it again... though I'm happy that I got the hardest move scrolls in the game to get through sheer will power. I just some how never gave up though finding it tedious and stupid to keep doing it. I kept at it, some how I don't know, I'm going to wildly guess that's how you really get the scroll, eventually after the fucking thousandth try the game gives it to you for free just for showing such fortitude? Cuz it was like that, failure failure failure, but I just kept going, then the miracle happened.
Good or bad game design? Some would argue overly challenging games are bad game design, but it's how you truly learn what kind of gamer you are in my opinion. A casual or a serious one. I'm mostly casual, but the amount of pure struggle I've gone through to win levels, yeah I feel confident saying I'm qualified to be considered serious. It's a test of that to me, and if it were easy like today's bullshit games, it'd simply be an interacive movie. Goddamnit, i mean that win, getting that win, it simply means more when it's against a real challenge, come on, jesus christ... simple logic.
Debating what to spend money on as well... it's tough to make sense of this black friday thing. I do want to finally play games in HD maybe even UHD but that money is tight right now, boy. I mean I did throw 700 dollars at this very computer and it has been, well at least now, a great purchase. I'm playing shenmue on it, running ps2 and gamecube games on it, on top of that, did all those last dragon drawings on it plust potentially could go further and really get going on some more ideas I've come up with... but I mostly use it to game and practice piano... forgot to dabble on some music tonight, just not in the mood...
But yeah the thing I want is to get a tv box put it on the 1080p tv we already got and just stream my game to that tv over wifi or lan whatever, problem solved. We have several tvs but I haven't figured out how to get anything casted over to them for gaming. So been messing around with the steam thing allows remote play. Seems ok problem is network play will cause slow down obviously since it's having to deal with all the back and forth traffic from online and local. Tough to say if it'd merit the purchase if I can only play star wars battlefront in 720p to accomodate the bandwidth limitations... But I might just go with a cable hook up to the router itself and then it should be blazing fast, no problems. I think I'll explore this further later, so see you then...
Going to keep an eye on it if it decides to go bonkers in the future. Reading about this bios update seems like as per usual big bad HP has actually broken things in its new bios so be cautious if you're on the newer models. I don't know if they did any underhanded changes to mine that might be throttling the cpu too much as others have made apparent in theirs.
Yikes, hate when the updates aren't tested by companies, they got to get their crap together, do better.
What's the plan from here forward for me. I don't know, but I want to get my voice in on the Last Dragon thing they're making. I might make my own Last Dragon video... Get that going... Got ideas for it anyway. Lots of tight close ups... I think that's a lost art. Today's movies are about showing off expensive sets, cgi, just putting on a big circus rather than the older more intimate way films were once done, especially 80s films. Like me personally it does aggravate to watch films and it's like 90% talking heads and no attempt at artistry.
Some stuff brewing for us Last Dragon fans... lots of good stuff that I hope to see go through and when I look out at the world today, it's like, there's nothing really like super upbeat and positive to kinda unite people these days. Nothing. Life is dead as a bag of dirt.
Am I going to get anywhere with my physical training and crap that i do these days. I mean I am having trouble to be honest. Nice to lose weight hard to stay motivated to lose it, hard to get off the ass and go stretch and get the blood flowing since I do indeed want to sit here and it's friggin freezing so it's not like it's good conditions!
But I try. It's like, yeah, got that drive in me to get in best shape possible before you lose it that kinda shit... I always dreamed of being big and jacked, I just never had the time to pursue it full on...
Might just get huge, should be interesting to finally fullfill that...
What else, yeah shenmue how's that going for people. I don't know... want to really trial the game before buying it. They really should let us fans f around in it for a while before purchasing it... see if we like it.
It's as I said it was. It's done like an old 90s game and todays' generation can't stomach having to deal with a non-compromising tough unforgiving DO or DIE kind of game that we got like water back in those days...
Am I right?
I kinda am interested in the challenge see if I can take the pounding that game has in store, but some thigns are putting me off. Some claiming stuff is too boring to do, which if you play shenmue, that's the series so what the hell did you think it'd be? Like right now I am exausted beyond wanting to go and screw around more in shenmue 2, it's a massive game so much to go through, i need to literally re-energize before tackling it again... though I'm happy that I got the hardest move scrolls in the game to get through sheer will power. I just some how never gave up though finding it tedious and stupid to keep doing it. I kept at it, some how I don't know, I'm going to wildly guess that's how you really get the scroll, eventually after the fucking thousandth try the game gives it to you for free just for showing such fortitude? Cuz it was like that, failure failure failure, but I just kept going, then the miracle happened.
Good or bad game design? Some would argue overly challenging games are bad game design, but it's how you truly learn what kind of gamer you are in my opinion. A casual or a serious one. I'm mostly casual, but the amount of pure struggle I've gone through to win levels, yeah I feel confident saying I'm qualified to be considered serious. It's a test of that to me, and if it were easy like today's bullshit games, it'd simply be an interacive movie. Goddamnit, i mean that win, getting that win, it simply means more when it's against a real challenge, come on, jesus christ... simple logic.
Debating what to spend money on as well... it's tough to make sense of this black friday thing. I do want to finally play games in HD maybe even UHD but that money is tight right now, boy. I mean I did throw 700 dollars at this very computer and it has been, well at least now, a great purchase. I'm playing shenmue on it, running ps2 and gamecube games on it, on top of that, did all those last dragon drawings on it plust potentially could go further and really get going on some more ideas I've come up with... but I mostly use it to game and practice piano... forgot to dabble on some music tonight, just not in the mood...
But yeah the thing I want is to get a tv box put it on the 1080p tv we already got and just stream my game to that tv over wifi or lan whatever, problem solved. We have several tvs but I haven't figured out how to get anything casted over to them for gaming. So been messing around with the steam thing allows remote play. Seems ok problem is network play will cause slow down obviously since it's having to deal with all the back and forth traffic from online and local. Tough to say if it'd merit the purchase if I can only play star wars battlefront in 720p to accomodate the bandwidth limitations... But I might just go with a cable hook up to the router itself and then it should be blazing fast, no problems. I think I'll explore this further later, so see you then...
Wednesday, November 27, 2019
Fixed this comp
I can't post my results to the whole reddit thing. I honestly don't get what reddit is exactly, it's like very popular but for reasons I can't understand. It's just another of a billion websites that do the same thing provide a space for discussion and votes on postings. Why's that make it this big deal? Shrugs... Don't geddit...
well if anyone else is an owner of a hp spectre x360 convertable laptop. Let's call these things what they are instead of the many stupid names people have given them. Tabtop or Laplet. One f'n word not the confusing and tough to type ones... geez. So hard to do search for one since not only does the company make a hundred dif versions of it, but there's no standard title for this design. You just have to take a shot in the dark and hope the search tags work out... well I think I solved the issue with mine, a I believe 2017 13inch little clunker of a machine.
It has a flaw one that has lead to many many many discussions and tutorials. Any time it's plugged in the cpu goes turbo and forces the fans to run constantly to cool it down. It's not game breaking but yeah, def not how a comp should do things. So I generally don't plug it in if I don't have to since I couldn't stand the over heating. Little sucker just goes nuclear with no provocation if you get me, just straight to highest fan speed and heat, some considering it a combo of high voltage from the charging and so on, but I didn't buy that. I've been messing with electronics a long time. Batteries don't get that hot that fast, don't think so.
So I did a lot of things to try to fix it and I'm talking early this year. Nothing worked, still a sad wacky malfunctioning expensive junk. but then I decided to try again despite having nothing work. Oh to my shock HP has updated my laptop's bios just a few months ago. Long after I originally looked for a solution... so I say, whatever decided to update...
now the thing's acting normal. literally right now as it's plugged in and I'm doing something like typing like this, it'd be going berserk and over heating. Not anymore....
So there it is, I guess some companies try to fix older abandoned machines sometimes. Or enough owners complained that they finally addressed it? I don't know, they seemed to have not cared and honestly that's what these companies do. They make a product sell it full of design flaws, and typically concentrate their energies and focus on the next version rather than work out the kinks in the ones people actually bought already.
Well anyway just wanted to let people know it's a good machine once it's fully updated. If you come across one and think it's a bad purchase because of certain issues it has been documented to have, it has been fixed and will be ok. Mine works now, have not tested the glitch with the touch pad going off permanently after a long stay in tablet mode so still need to test that... yep, still more problems with this thing but the game breaker for me was the over heating, so that's nice that I don't have to worry bout that shit.
well if anyone else is an owner of a hp spectre x360 convertable laptop. Let's call these things what they are instead of the many stupid names people have given them. Tabtop or Laplet. One f'n word not the confusing and tough to type ones... geez. So hard to do search for one since not only does the company make a hundred dif versions of it, but there's no standard title for this design. You just have to take a shot in the dark and hope the search tags work out... well I think I solved the issue with mine, a I believe 2017 13inch little clunker of a machine.
It has a flaw one that has lead to many many many discussions and tutorials. Any time it's plugged in the cpu goes turbo and forces the fans to run constantly to cool it down. It's not game breaking but yeah, def not how a comp should do things. So I generally don't plug it in if I don't have to since I couldn't stand the over heating. Little sucker just goes nuclear with no provocation if you get me, just straight to highest fan speed and heat, some considering it a combo of high voltage from the charging and so on, but I didn't buy that. I've been messing with electronics a long time. Batteries don't get that hot that fast, don't think so.
So I did a lot of things to try to fix it and I'm talking early this year. Nothing worked, still a sad wacky malfunctioning expensive junk. but then I decided to try again despite having nothing work. Oh to my shock HP has updated my laptop's bios just a few months ago. Long after I originally looked for a solution... so I say, whatever decided to update...
now the thing's acting normal. literally right now as it's plugged in and I'm doing something like typing like this, it'd be going berserk and over heating. Not anymore....
So there it is, I guess some companies try to fix older abandoned machines sometimes. Or enough owners complained that they finally addressed it? I don't know, they seemed to have not cared and honestly that's what these companies do. They make a product sell it full of design flaws, and typically concentrate their energies and focus on the next version rather than work out the kinks in the ones people actually bought already.
Well anyway just wanted to let people know it's a good machine once it's fully updated. If you come across one and think it's a bad purchase because of certain issues it has been documented to have, it has been fixed and will be ok. Mine works now, have not tested the glitch with the touch pad going off permanently after a long stay in tablet mode so still need to test that... yep, still more problems with this thing but the game breaker for me was the over heating, so that's nice that I don't have to worry bout that shit.
Thursday, November 21, 2019
entering the dragon
Am progressing through shenmue a game I've beaten twice, why bother going through it again... Yanno, it's tough to say why I do anything that i do in life, just following my heart I guess. I feel it's right to drudge through both games again this time attempting to find all the secrets.
Interesting to read and watch reviews of the new game comparing it to the many shenmue inspired clones that have come and gone and some considering those to be better in some aspects. Maybe... I don't know, haven't attempted any of them. Is shenmue 3 too retro, should they have made it more modern with all the excessive overdone stuff we have in today's hand holding pussy ass games we get nonstop these days.
I don't know what's frustrating these reviewers who want the game to be made like today's nonsense. But just playing shenmue 1 again I forgot how ball busting some stages are in that game, but that was typical of 90s games. They gave no fucks, if you couldn't find a miracle to win them, no dice.
Today I mean yeah there are still tough games but it more or less comes down to tedium having to deal with hordes of enemies or poor game design not deliberately crafted difficulty which was the MO of classic old games, even mario was going to destroy you back in the old old mario days, even that shit crushed your spirits and made you want to toss your nintendo out the windo.
I mean I wanted to give up at points in shenmue 1, but I kept fighting, kept walking into the pit of hell and just kept losing again and again... Haven't had a game do that to me in a very long time. Then it happened. I figured out the right patterns to give myself a chance and I struggled and beat the dude. Now of course I know he's not the worst I've fought and beat. That still awaits me in shenmue 2 but it taught me to push on through anyway. Corny as it sounds. It's simply because I didn't let "give up" take over in my mind that I proved I could do it... That's great gaming. And yeah the stage is poorly designed and tough for reasons you yourself have to adapt to and learn to deal with, but I mean, that's 90s gaming. Half of the games back then had shit in them you had to adapt to and adjust to and use your brain to calculate how to solve all the wonky design problems and bugs. Super Star Wars, hell I can name a billion star wars games where you just had to figure out how to hack the game using the game itself to some extent in order to survive it. Mario Kart can be unfair as hell if you don't know how to manipulate the track itself and learn proper sliding to gain an advantage, etc. it was up to you in the end is all I'm saying. They pumped out so many games so fast with so many bugs, what an insane test of will power those were...
I remember playing like a jedi on some levels. Not even thinking, just going through the motions letting go of all conciousness and letting just the reflexes do all the work. They don't make those games anymore.
Or maybe that's what shenmue 3 demands. You play like you did on old systems. I don't know yet. Will be cointinuing to look into people's thoughts, I don't think people have beat it yet, must be a big ass game...
Interesting to read and watch reviews of the new game comparing it to the many shenmue inspired clones that have come and gone and some considering those to be better in some aspects. Maybe... I don't know, haven't attempted any of them. Is shenmue 3 too retro, should they have made it more modern with all the excessive overdone stuff we have in today's hand holding pussy ass games we get nonstop these days.
I don't know what's frustrating these reviewers who want the game to be made like today's nonsense. But just playing shenmue 1 again I forgot how ball busting some stages are in that game, but that was typical of 90s games. They gave no fucks, if you couldn't find a miracle to win them, no dice.
Today I mean yeah there are still tough games but it more or less comes down to tedium having to deal with hordes of enemies or poor game design not deliberately crafted difficulty which was the MO of classic old games, even mario was going to destroy you back in the old old mario days, even that shit crushed your spirits and made you want to toss your nintendo out the windo.
I mean I wanted to give up at points in shenmue 1, but I kept fighting, kept walking into the pit of hell and just kept losing again and again... Haven't had a game do that to me in a very long time. Then it happened. I figured out the right patterns to give myself a chance and I struggled and beat the dude. Now of course I know he's not the worst I've fought and beat. That still awaits me in shenmue 2 but it taught me to push on through anyway. Corny as it sounds. It's simply because I didn't let "give up" take over in my mind that I proved I could do it... That's great gaming. And yeah the stage is poorly designed and tough for reasons you yourself have to adapt to and learn to deal with, but I mean, that's 90s gaming. Half of the games back then had shit in them you had to adapt to and adjust to and use your brain to calculate how to solve all the wonky design problems and bugs. Super Star Wars, hell I can name a billion star wars games where you just had to figure out how to hack the game using the game itself to some extent in order to survive it. Mario Kart can be unfair as hell if you don't know how to manipulate the track itself and learn proper sliding to gain an advantage, etc. it was up to you in the end is all I'm saying. They pumped out so many games so fast with so many bugs, what an insane test of will power those were...
I remember playing like a jedi on some levels. Not even thinking, just going through the motions letting go of all conciousness and letting just the reflexes do all the work. They don't make those games anymore.
Or maybe that's what shenmue 3 demands. You play like you did on old systems. I don't know yet. Will be cointinuing to look into people's thoughts, I don't think people have beat it yet, must be a big ass game...
Tuesday, November 19, 2019
Saw Harriet too
Last day it's going to be cheap at the theater so I said, do or die, and went to it. Once again trying to in some way watch something that isn't the same old same old stuff, though I'm not a big fan of slavery films. Saw f'n Cloud Atlas not having a clue it was a damn slavery film, got hoodwinked.
What do I think about the whole race mess all that stuff. I mean it's so beneathe my sensibilities. I grew up with all of the colors. I don't really have the mental immaturity built in to think of racism as a serious subject, even less so now that I'm more invited into the white world and see who white people are prettymuch all the time now.
So no, I don't even like to dwell on the subject. It's dumb, it's like thinking about whether the earth could really be flat or not.
There is still to this day race stuff going on and it's so sad. I do feel bad thinking about it, how yeah people segregate themselves and fear each other and power trip over each other, it's saddening. It's a bunch of political cluster fuck, that whole subject. I don't want anything to do with it and try to enjoy my life since like it's like going to be f'n done one day as is evident by my own father's decline in health and such.
Life is done before you know it if you're not smart about it...
Star Wars was always my concept of race if you ever wanted to know my mentality. It'd be a fine day when we as a society just did stuff like star wars.
Anyway, fine film. Very strong, doesn't sugar coat slavery, makes clear it was barbaric shit that went down back then. What I found most interesting and is always fascinating about movies like this is the relationships between the slaves and slave owners. Haven't seen Jango yet but I will come around to it. So it sets up that there might be some genuine feelings between Tubman and her master's son who both grew up together. I'm sure that there are real stories of that where slave owners kids grew to be friends with the slave kids, need a movie about that stuff. So you do start to understand the slave owner's son's story and fears and sympathize with his dilemas. It does make me wonder what the civil war was about, keeping slavery a thing, or keeping the plantations from going bankrupt and rich slave owners not wanting to lose their status in society. All that is lightly touched upon but not delved into. Ultimately the slave owner's son is pure devil in the end, no chance at redemption. But yeah no one is perfect in this film which is what I liked. It shows there were blacks who were uncle toms looking for a buck, probably the most true and utterly ridiculous thing to ever happen in history but neverless still going on today. The Uncle Tom blacks who apparently don't give a giant shit about having freedom and rights and just want to be a pet to their overseers. I've worked with those guys, I mean you see it in politics, it's real.
Takes balls of steel to fight for black people, so I guess I can understand why some don't bother and instead chuck and jive. I just wish it wasn't that way...
It's also true that hollywood is making slavery films to put blacks in their place in hollywood and give white actors an escuse to use the N-word and make blacks feel slavery's their greatest most important identifying factor... so I mean, the film's got some baggage to it in the end, and it's why I'm not into slavery films. I just don't think more can be said. It sucked, black people didn't like it. Can we move on?
Makes ya think, the way this world's being run, makes ya goddamn think... will be finishing shenmue 1 and 2, then get going on 3...
Been waiting and it's time to finish what my little boy self started.
What do I think about the whole race mess all that stuff. I mean it's so beneathe my sensibilities. I grew up with all of the colors. I don't really have the mental immaturity built in to think of racism as a serious subject, even less so now that I'm more invited into the white world and see who white people are prettymuch all the time now.
So no, I don't even like to dwell on the subject. It's dumb, it's like thinking about whether the earth could really be flat or not.
There is still to this day race stuff going on and it's so sad. I do feel bad thinking about it, how yeah people segregate themselves and fear each other and power trip over each other, it's saddening. It's a bunch of political cluster fuck, that whole subject. I don't want anything to do with it and try to enjoy my life since like it's like going to be f'n done one day as is evident by my own father's decline in health and such.
Life is done before you know it if you're not smart about it...
Star Wars was always my concept of race if you ever wanted to know my mentality. It'd be a fine day when we as a society just did stuff like star wars.
Anyway, fine film. Very strong, doesn't sugar coat slavery, makes clear it was barbaric shit that went down back then. What I found most interesting and is always fascinating about movies like this is the relationships between the slaves and slave owners. Haven't seen Jango yet but I will come around to it. So it sets up that there might be some genuine feelings between Tubman and her master's son who both grew up together. I'm sure that there are real stories of that where slave owners kids grew to be friends with the slave kids, need a movie about that stuff. So you do start to understand the slave owner's son's story and fears and sympathize with his dilemas. It does make me wonder what the civil war was about, keeping slavery a thing, or keeping the plantations from going bankrupt and rich slave owners not wanting to lose their status in society. All that is lightly touched upon but not delved into. Ultimately the slave owner's son is pure devil in the end, no chance at redemption. But yeah no one is perfect in this film which is what I liked. It shows there were blacks who were uncle toms looking for a buck, probably the most true and utterly ridiculous thing to ever happen in history but neverless still going on today. The Uncle Tom blacks who apparently don't give a giant shit about having freedom and rights and just want to be a pet to their overseers. I've worked with those guys, I mean you see it in politics, it's real.
Takes balls of steel to fight for black people, so I guess I can understand why some don't bother and instead chuck and jive. I just wish it wasn't that way...
It's also true that hollywood is making slavery films to put blacks in their place in hollywood and give white actors an escuse to use the N-word and make blacks feel slavery's their greatest most important identifying factor... so I mean, the film's got some baggage to it in the end, and it's why I'm not into slavery films. I just don't think more can be said. It sucked, black people didn't like it. Can we move on?
Makes ya think, the way this world's being run, makes ya goddamn think... will be finishing shenmue 1 and 2, then get going on 3...
Been waiting and it's time to finish what my little boy self started.
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