Airforce recruitment

It's going well. i'm finally getting somewhere with my, how do I put this, case for enlistment. I have to fight my way into the military, can you believe that? I have to fight my way into a place where I can potentially be tossed into a war zone and blown to bits. STUPID. But... eh, my recruiter's the nicest guy in the universe. He really identifies with my struggle to kind of get going in life despite having to overcome race issues and whatever else. I was permanently disqualified from entry into the Airforce back in 2004 because I mistakenly put down that I had an allergy while at Meps. I was just f'n 17 then... If I had gotten in then, I wouldn't be this pitiful mess I am now, I can assure you, internet. I have always considered myself to be a military man since I was 8 years old. I don't like nor want to live an ordinary civilian life. It's fake. It's a bunch of people pretending to get along even though they secretly hate each other. I hate that. Military, it's straight forward, WE F U UP. What's better than that?

It's manly. Even the women are manly in the military. Out here, men aren't men. I look at my big fat dad and he's no longer a man. I look around and see men have prettymuch become women. I'm not saying we shouldn't be free to do that, but jesus christ, I'm at a point where I'm trying to mature into a man and have very little examples to kind of draw from. Who? Who's manly on tv or movies anymore? I mean really manly. I mean getting shot and not giving a damn manly. All spidey does is cry, all these other movies are about how hard it is to please a woman bla bla bull crap. I want manly cinema back just like it used to be. No more nerds saving the world crap. I want a guy like stallone back, pure basic manhood plowing through life through sheer will.

I would love to see that actually. I want a movie that made for MEN and that's it. Just a big ol' man movie instead of the next stupid sissy juno thing. I'll care about artsy cinema when I'm old and waiting to die. Now I want to live! Dragonball looks to be bringing back some testosterone to cinema. Rambo did last year but eh, it's not enough. And stallone couldn't do the stuff he used to do. Oh but batman was manly one might say. I thought the movie was trying too hard to be manly actually. It was like a commentary on how boys today struggle to figure out how to be men and think that being disgusting and violent is the best way to achieve it. I don't mind that, no. But I remember a time when manly movie was more about coolness under pressure than wreckless violence, a somber depressing tone... a movie could be like something like johnny quest and feature gadgets and high adventure, good ol' american underdog spirit which to me is manly.

That's what men do... We're hunters, explorers, warriors, builders, workers, and protectors. Instead we get movies about how much we hurt inside or some shit. Yeah we hurt, but that's why we invented beer.