A Nation of Cowards

It's true. To be brutally honest, we're all a bunch of selfish, insecure babies when it comes to confronting serious issues in an adult way like the older generation did. I'll admit I'm scared of fighting "the man" and double scared of facing the world now after dropping out of college like a doofus. You can't do that, I know it now but if only I knew when I was 18 just how valuable a degree would be, I'd have suffered through the courses to get it, no matter what. I'm smart but there's no one now as I'm older who'll immediately think that.

Well I'm just going to go to work now. My porn addiction's still killing me mentally but if I keep pushing through the pain, I think I'll be able to overcome it.

I have to say that I'm kind of angry now about the way the world's sort of put a spotlight on black america and given all kinds of people a stage to finally express what they truly think about black people, that would never really have happened before because blacks were never considered any kind of threat to the way things were or whatever status quo there was. Now I see the debate and race wars stiring over black performance vs other minority performance etc. whether affirmative action should still exist (I was against it until I myself realized how the world really is, everbody hates black people.) There's a lot of truth to the idea that people, mostly immature kids want to frankly make black people disapear. And there's also truth to the fact that some black people are nutty and don't want to work hard in school and read and instead become stupid gangsters as a way of rebelling against the system. How's a decent black person to navigate through all these differing views on who he's supposed to be in this world? Shit...