Just another day

It's 5 o'clock, pm. I'm sitting on the toilet, dropping off a special delivery while browsing dragonball blogs, contemplating whether to jump in on the discussions happening on the forums. I'm spent completely after the last 3 years of forum use and don't want to do it anymore though. It's rough, people misinterpreting stuff, flaming you, playing mind games, etc. I don't want to get into that again. I'm going to college either way, airforce or not, but let me tell you something about that. I know no where is safe. You can try to run away from people you don't like, by then you'll just be alone. Being with people comes with its challenges. Sometimes you'll want to just kill them, or other times kiss them. That's what's so interesting about life I guess.

About my porn craze, I want to end it. I'm an addict, to it and the internet in general. I need to get the f off it and live in the real world. I got to go to work tomorrow and it's going to be a painful day because my head is aching after shooting my semen, so as usual it'll hurt all day tomorrow. I'm telling you, internet, it's like cigarretes. There's a white guy at work who you could time your watch by he's always out at sunset smoking a cig. What is with addiction? I go online and I see people out there who seem perfectly healthy, no addiction to anything? Why can't I be like them? Is this adulthood? Is adulthood just endless sexual urges? How do people finish college?

*takes a deep breath* Poor kids. I'm just a statistic... there's a lot more who are going to drop out like me and then get their minds all mangled and they won't be fortunate enough to have anyone help them with psychologists or anything like that. If I stayed in school, I'd have become a psychologist myself and ended up helping kids or whatever. Instead I went and got lost in the internet bull crap. Don't make that mistake, Kids. It's fun when you're a teen, but the early 20s is a crucial time when you have to begin accepting adult responsibility which entails finding a balance in life between work and play. It's more complicated than that, but yeah, you can't be a kid forever, not gonna happen.