Homeless subway people

It's a sad sight, no more, no less. These are people who for whatever reason can't find a job for their basic survival. I've read about them in magazines. They're either psychotic, or drug addicts who live for their next fix, or just people with nothing left after a fire or whatever. If I was them I'd honestly just kill myself. Life's not worth living if all you're going to do is walk around begging for pennies like some zombie from a bunch of people who are barely scraping by themselves in this cruel world. Why is the world cruel? Because you're on your own. I know that at my age I'm supposed to be supporting myself. I was told in high school that if I didn't graduate I'd end up poor, so despite having no strength left to go through the daily torture of school, I did it. I said whatever and just jumped head first into the flames thinking I'd rather die than fail and I graduated. I didn't even go to graduation because I was so exhausted; I went to a mental hosptital after all because school nearly killed me.

But the fun didn't end there... turns out a high school diploma's worth about as much as a GED which anybody can get whenever they want. For the love of...

Now I'm in the real world, which is about surviving on your own and dealing with people's craziness. I know now from my forum use that people are crazy. You can be the nicest guy in the world, someone will be there trying to tear you down, it doesn't matter. What it comes down to in the end is how much cred you have, not who you are as a person. Then people will watch your back out there. I have no cred and at my age though I'm still inexperienced and trying to crawl before running in adulthood, nope, people will stomp on me and walk away laughing. I don't have a choice but to equip myself with some kind of defenses. I'll need to get a degree, learn a second language, improve myself in general and I'll be on my way. I just know I can't do it alone though and that's the real killer. Where do you turn for help in this world that's full of people who don't really care about each other?

I swear if I get in the airforce I'll do everything within my power to give back to society. I swear to God himself.