Army Guns part 2

So I relapsed again. Shame too, since I was doing well. It's just that my mind is very good at convincing me that one little go around with some porn won't hurt a bit, then I splooge and I get my endorphin rush which is like no where near the type of rush I got at 15, but for whatever reason it's all I have, so i roll with it.

Fixin to join the army. I got to get me some damn money, so I can get by. But i'm permanently handicapped by this problem. And I know this... people will manipulate me into doing whatever it is they want, but to hell with whether I get what I want. Sad but true, this world's out to fuck us men up, we ain't squat to it. I mean I'm continuously irked that people gang up on you if you don't conform to their little ideals.

Avatar's the highest grossing movie now. Jesus. I didn't see that coming. I liked the movie reminds me of when movies were more simple instead of the overdone kitchen sinkers we get every year now. But to be honest it's not the end all be all of movies. City of God, goddamn, what else, hell even recent video games rival it for spectacle and story, probably the 3d is the root of its success. At least it's better than that literal ass fest of a film transformers 2. I know.. kids love it, but fuck kids, the movie didn't know what it was doing. I hate it except for the cool forest fight. But having a few moments echo the good stuff from the toon doesn't save it. That's like a defense for ratner's garbage.

I mean, I'm not going to cram my opinion down anyone's throat because I know now that it's not worth it. But undeniably he's a soulless business man looking to make a buck and not create profound works that challenge the mind. Pisses me off that like with ang lee's hulk, most people online don't give a shit about movies that force you to think.

But whatever. Oh and I'm using firefox to post this, that's one good thing that came out of today. I was so confused about why firefox wasn't loading web pages and I had to use the shitty internet explorer instead, but I fiddled around with the built in firewall on my laptop and it's working just like new now. fuck yeah. I was happy as can be, but then i realized the speaker's still broken on it, so there goes watching any toons or movies. It worked for a bit but now it's completely dead. I can only guess that using it in the bathroom caused it some trouble with all the humidity and moisture in the air, must have gotten into it. It's dead now, dead dead dead, which angers me.

So the battle continues. I'm a god capable of creating new life and that new life will not stop bothering me until it has been created, fucking shit...