194.4 pounds

Life is good. I have to say, life is good. Learning to lose weight is the best thing I've EVER done my whole life. I feel younger, stronger, don't even want to jerk off as badly. I think I was jacking off so much because I was compensating for how bad I felt being overweight. Now that the weight is gone, I'm feel almost like a kid again... what does that mean? Kids just hang out in the world without feeling any angst about things or whatever, they're just chillin. I'm getting that back little by little.

This is day 2 of the water fast. This is the hardest day. The way it works is that your body has to get accustomed to the lack of food and it's going to hurt for a little while before your body gets used to it and you don't get that "omg I'm starving" feeling...

After that, you don't feel any desire to eat.

I remember the first day I did this, my brain was craving oral stimulation because it's used to it. Every day I get up and go eat, right, so my brain thinks its going to get that sensation. Nope. So I kept thinking about chewing and eating for hours... because that's what my brain was expecting... it sucked. You want to concentrate on playing the piano. You want to maybe watch a movie, but all your thinking about is chewing something....

Nevermind that. Going to get fucking SLIM. I estimate I've got 30 pounds to lose. Max out at 160 pounds and then that'll be the end of it.

I'll never again understand why anyone is overweight in this world. It's just so fucking simple to knock pounds off your body, takes no fucking effort whatsoever but alas, people are stupid.