alrighty then

 moving on. Going to go back on the water only diet for a while, continue to get my body prepared for the Static Shock movie.

What can be said about creating this thing. I don't know really... how can a black guy sell a comic book character and movie to a majority white audience.

I don't really care myself. I just like good movies, don't give a damn about the racial side of things.

It'll be new and different, that's the thing. How many movies are coming out now about white people going up against incredible odds.

NOBODY is making black movies these days, SQUAT SHIT is being made featuring black people in any major capacity.

It's kinda sad, black president, yet there's like still a majority white thing going on. I understand it too, really the reason for it is because white people are good looking and hollywood is all about looks in the end. I notice it... there really has never been MAJOR break out black stars in hollywood, EVER. They've always been hollywood shuffle type niggas all in the background and shit. Makes no sense. There are very smart fucking black people in this world who could be right up front doing movies too, but apparently not going to happen.

It's a shitty situation to end up falling into in life I must say. I honestly NEVER saw that my race was going to be a factor at all in life as I got older, but no. It's the only factor. I have to prove I'm not just an ordinary fucktard black guy to get any kind of respect, or ultimately and worst of all, some white people just don't give a damn about me at all and actually wouldn't mind it if I dropped off the face of the earth...

heh, don't know what to think about that really... Im here, I'm just watching porn and trying to lose weight, nothing special. Don't know what the big deal is about me at all...

Fact is, there isn't. I ALWAYS knew deep down I was just going to be an ordinary person doing NOTHING. But because I'm black, I've got a spotlight on me all day. That's the sucky part. Yeah, I do want to be left alone. I've lived my whole life being content with sitting down and reading a book or drawing, or watching tv and movies, now I'm supposed to be worried about getting cappped in the street or something? come on...

ugh, life...