I like being me

It's great.  One day I will be dead. Yep, not going to sugar coat it. You will too. You may read this blog and say,. well this guy's such a dumbass lol, we're better than him. But no, fucked up thing about life is that we're all going to fucking die in the end.

Nothing we can do about it either.

It should be pretty painless from my estimations on how death goes, whatever....

I've seen it. It's so fucking painless unless you die mad painfully. Natural death is like, very simple thing. You experience this slow down of all your life functions and you die. Yep, like going to sleep. Nothing spectacular about it.

Still despite my realizing that i'm going to fucking die one day, I LIKE being me.

I dunno, I always have for some reason. Never had any problems being me, I guess it's because I'm intelligent rather than the throngs of idiots all around...

But no, the primary reason I like being me is that I have this vision. There's things I believe are possible for human beings to accomplish through sheer will power. The time machine... this static shock movie... and of course I'm trying struggling to lose weight to get back my old skinny body I used to have.

Such a shame really. I was very fucking thin as a child yunno. then suddenly i hit my 20s and I start to get fat. I think, oh well, that's aging for ya. But no. My natural body state is thin, always has been. I've been the one fucking up my body, nothing else. Goddamn is it good to be back. You darn tootin, I'm over the moon by this new lease on life.

Fuck though, I don't know.... hard to say what to do with my life, hard to say. Just glad I can get rid of this fat ass.