Remembering my childhood...

I have to say something on this. It's remarkable to me to look back on the whimsical and almost magical time period that was the 90s. I DO miss it tremendously, mostly because I didn't have a gaggle of KKK knuckleheads chasing me down everywhere I go. You think I'm some kind of threat to white people or something? I don't think I am honestly, but they know better than me about that shit. "white preparedness and all."

Let's get something straight. I'm an artist. I don't give a fuck about politics. I don't give a damn about proving one race is better than the other. I've ALWAYS been in a serious passion for art, good art, complex, meaningful, powerful art.

And I think a lot of people are, regardless of race.

Am I a pussy for not wanting to get into the race wars continuing today? Am I too scared of big muscular white guys to hit the gym and study hard and compete with them? No, I'm crazy enough to try really, but I have other things I want to do...

Like, it's an odd thing to have experienced such a golden era in art animation, sports, and music that was the 90s as a child, then sadly life seems to have deflated and we're in this strange down period...

Maybe people notice it, or not, what do I know... but I remember sitting back relaxing and being blasted with AMAZING movies, cartoons, and shit during the old days. Now it's all fucking gone with the wind.

I can only guess the people who made that stuff are just older, retired etc. It's crazy, it's like a light bulb's been switched off and life just fucking sucks now, it's nuts...

I'm still who I am despite it all. I've always been a nerdy geek with a smart mouth who's lanky and shit. Basically Urkel.

I don't mind that comparison. Urkel's the man in my eyes and I always looked up to him.

I think the tipping point for everything was Superman Returns. After that debacle, I personally felt dirty, I think everybody did. There we had a GREAT piece of film making right before our eyes, and it got fumbled around like a football by a bunch of internet psychopaths. After that, I personally stopped feeling good about myself and about the movie world that I believed in so deeply. How could people spend so much time trying to shit on a movie like that? I went to Lotr as a teen, enjoyed the shit out of that movie, then took the bus home and moved on with life... no such luck with superman. I got people wanting to fucking kill me over that movie. Darn tootin... you certainly don't think to yourself as a kid, well yannno one day I'm going to get embroiled in a fucked up mess of a war over superman's boot size and someone will wish me death because of it. But no, there are people in this world who will pull out a gun and shoot you because you said you liked a movie they didn't...

Never discussing movies online EVER again...

They want to make something of it apparently, but I'm not buying it. I come from TOUGH times. You might get teased, harrassed, bullied, whatever LIFE GOES FUCKING ON. I can't believe how paper thin people's egos have become these days, they can't handle SHIT anymore. Yeah life's not perfect, and maybe you won't have everything great before you die. THAT'S THE WAY IT GOES.

I don't understand this whole ideology people have these days that they can live life without getting hurt or having to feel bad some times.

I learned to cope with that WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY back in grade school. You accept that life is going to be pretty shitty for the most part. Shrugs, enjoy those moments that are good and that's all you can do.

Goddamn have we become soft these days. You may notice I'm BUILT and I'm extremely athletic, it's because I HAD TO. This place I come from, you have to be tough to survive. Yeah I feel bad about pussying out on reading a post in a thread, but I"ve been through WORSE in my life so NO it doesn't completely encompass my entire life and I will forget about it and move on.

A dude shouldn't have to deal with crazy amounts of real world stuff before he gets a goddamn girlfriend anyway. Now i have to live with being told my kids will hate me or some shit. I don't even know anything about having kids you asshole. I'm just a young fucking man. You're in your 30s, you've watched your wife give birth, and now you're such tough shit you're going to shit on someone younger and less experienced in life than you. GO FUCK YOURSELF, thanks.

That's the problem I've always had. At 16 I went to Jedi.net to talk star wars. I had fun, it was my first experience with the world of internet stuff. Little did I know you've got people who are just insane sitting at their computers and I got what I got at that age. Now I know not to care about the internet anymore. I don't. You don't personally know anybody online, you didn't grow up with them, hell, they don't care about you either... why should anybody give a damn that much about someone a gazillion miles away behind their pc, I don't know...

That's the joke, and I had to learn it the hard way, the internet's not your friend. It used to be a safe haven from reality, now it's become the catalyst for an even worse nightmare where the twain have met and generally people in life are using online shinanigans as a reason to belittle me or whatever. I think to myself, "who the hell am I that I deserve all this shit..." but there ya go. I can only guess that's how the world works, ANYTHING you do to piss off anybody they'll follow you to the end of the earth and never let it go. Live and learn...

Ah, they'll get over it. I don't believe in this whole, "we're up your ass." attitude, I really don't. I got things I want to do. Maybe you'll sit around all day being a douche, but um, I'm going to grab some titties and shit.

tootles...