trying to make sense of things

I just jacked off to some ass 2 times.

Gets me thinking. Not that I care that much, but yeah, it's pretty damn dissappointing isn't it... that basically all "adulthood" is is being horny 24/7?

What's all the shit they put us through in childhood for if all we're going to become is horny animals in the end?

It's like, damn... so it doesn't matter who's good, who's bad. all that matters is if you get some ass. Girls especially apparently don't have much problem getting fucked by some retard.

I can't believe that shit....

I've met some right fucking idiots in my life so far and no way could they be the ones pounding ass left and right and I'm not.

You may want to point a finger at me and say I'll be a bad parent one day, but boy if you grew up with the fuckers I did, you'd have a better opinion of me, that's for sure.

The guy I'm remembering is this asshole from 8th grade. No doubt he's getting all kinds of pussy these days. Wondering to myself whether that's right really...

That the bullies get all the ass and the nerds like me get to watch them get all the ass...

shit, that isn't right. Particularly because that's not what I was seeing on tv and movies. Everything was about how the nerds got the girl because they were good men. So I believed in that message. Made sense. You be a real honest traditional male, you get the pussy.

Not anymore...

I know the world's a cruel and terrible place and people these days are a lot less disciplined and conservative as they used to be... but FUCK, if there hasn't been some complete loss of class in this world today or what...

Yeah even i have to say that's kinda ridiculous.

I'm not about people being tight butt conformists, not at all, but the old days were different than today. You couldn't do tons of anal porn then jump into a movie career alongside regular actors. But no, we have that shit going on.

Why's there so many white girls getting slammed in their ass by black guys these days? Didn't we used to have entire tv shows like dawson's creek dedicated to the difficulty with which a white guy has to try to fuck a white girl? Now apparently, no, it's not hard at all. White girls have no shame anymore....

shit... in short. I'm just really noticing the strange reversal of ideologies as I've gone along through life and seen things one way, and now all that shits been tossed out the window, life's one big FUCK PARTY yall, forget all about being dignified and intelligent.

damn..