when you don't think you can. When you honestly just want to throw in the towel, quit, just crawl into a hole...
I feel like shit. I feel like there's no winning in life for me, I'll always be alone, always fuck up, always try and fail... I'm 23 goddamn years old. who am I supposed to be now that all that kiddie crap's over? Am I supposed to just... what? Get laid certainly is a priority, but I don't want anything to do with parenting. This is stupid as hell. I'm about to kill myself going through 2 months of basic training, then 3 months of tech school... I'm capable of the physical tasks, but mentally I'm unstable, can't concentrate, feel fucked up because of the internet, the damn internet. You should never take the internet seriously, really, since it's a bunch of freaks on there... but I'm crazy like that.
*shrugs* life's a bitch. And yeah though I'll get kicked around and likely beaten again, I have to keep going if I want to get what I want out of it... shit. Oh well. I'm gone. I'm done. No more blog. I have to get serious about military life. I want to become stronger. Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhh!!! LET'S GO! IT'S TIME BABY! MAN UP OR SHUT UP!
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