Blue Balls

I've been honestly losing what little sanity I have while fighting this addiction to pornoes. 22, at my peak sexually, all down hill from here eh... I hope so. I hate this. I have my sister telling me that she knows someone who's a virgin at 26 (why?) and of course now in the adult world everyone's trying to parent each other and tell them who they're supposed to be, how smart, how much sex and with whom they should be having it. I know I'm smart, I know I'm capable of becoming a decently intelligent older person if I apply myself. I know this stuff but it's bad when some snob comes along and tears into you because you've reached 22 and yet haven't written a novel or conqured some complex intellectual stuff. I will, I know that much. I'll never just sit around doing nothing. I'll do something demanding brain work. The only problem I have now is that my brain's all mucked up because of the sexual urges. I can't concentrate and hell naw I can't relax and just chill because I'm so sexually frustrated...

Oh well.