Brains

I have a high ass IQ... That's one of the reasons why I'm motivated to pursue a career in the military. I know I can do the work. The other reasons are because it's going to lead to college, and I do want to help the country. I wish I could have gone in years ago, but shit, that's life. Sometimes you have to sacrifice for what you want. So I'll be in at 23, so be it. I WILL get in. This is not a game anymore. I'm an adult now and when you're an adult, life is serious. I still feel like myself though even though I'm a bit more wrinkly and my hair's receded half an inch. Probably due to my bad health habits growing up. I wish someone informed me about good nutrition. If I knew how damaging a simple soda was, I'd have never drank so much of it back in my childhood years.

Now I just have to maintain what youth I have and keep in good shape for the future. I want to be one of those 30 year old guys who you can't tell is 30, hell there's 50 year olds who you can just tell have put effort into maintaining their health. That's what I want, but I got some kind of nerve damage on my left side of my head that's been a problem since 05 and stuck with me to this day. It hurts every day people. I'm never free from it.

On top of that I'm always horny. I'm on the train and this beautiful chick is there sitting across the car, and my dick just shot up at the sight of her. Same with a girl at work. Why does the world expect people my age to be all about the books and hard work? lolz Nature don't work that way. It's stupidness. I don't understand how they expect teens who are at their sexual peak not to have sex and then when they reach their early 20s everyone's teasing them because they haven't had sex yet and are losers. It's ridiculous. If you're a teen, just go ahead and screw, get it out of the way so it's not so interesting anymore. I wish I did. I wouldn't be this awkward loser who's always horny if I didn't do the whole nice guy thing.

Women don't know what they want really. They say they want a nice guy but then get with the jerks and assholes. They say they want to be treated like equals then expect to be bought by men who give them special treatment. It's just unfair and women love it. I see it all the time... When it comes down to the hard cold reality of life you won't really find a woman who's fully independant and doesn't want to be protected by a big strong ape of a man, which are becoming more rare these days.

Hell i'm about to watch Brokeback Mountain to see what all this gay shit's about. I understand some people are born gay and all that, but I think it's having a bad effect on kids since some kids probably don't think they're gay until they first hear about it, then they develope that mentality and never go back to being straight. That's just an interesting theory I have.