Getting Older

Isn't easy. I'm growing up in an odd time. While at college I sat around in the library wondering to myself who I was and why I was there. I thought many things... of course I thought about making money, then I started thinking about girls, which is really more complicated than I thought it would be. No bs, girls are whores these days. They don't want to be equal at all, they just want to be treated like a princess while pretending to be fully independent. It was this thought that led me into my internet addiction in I guess a reckless and care less way because I knew I had nothing to lose. I knew that I'd go down in life in either two ways, struggling to pay for a girl or exploring my passions online foolishly. Either way was a dead end eh. I think that's just life, one big dead end. What are we to do but have fun on the way there? God, why do people take life so seriously all the damn time? Laugh a little... This guy at work for instance, everything is a life changing moment for him as if anything I say has to be picked apart bit by bit. I try to avoid this guy but he's something else, a damn psycho, reels me in with his pleasant attitude and greeting, then gets to work trying to sound like he's a genius on life, at 21. Dumb... I got to get into the military asap.