redemption

I hope I can change still. I'm almost 23 years old. You're supposed to have your degree and everything by then, I know that. But I needed time to re-energize myself before tackling MORE school work. Truthfully though, college is not as hard as high school. I don't know what it's for really. Seems like a weak ass boarding school where you sit around and learn bits of stuff then go out to become one of those snobs who thinks they're better than average people but really isn't.

I keep thinking about that jerk at work who I'm no longer working with. What scares me somewhat about that is that that guy was just one example of how the real world works and he wasn't even the worst of what you can find out there. I mean, he's a new black male, internet junkie, similar to me, but he knows how to fuck with people's heads similar to a lot of intelligent people do online all the time. so when he's up against people who don't surf the web daily, he has an idea how to manipulate them. What if I didn't know some of his tricks? Would I have been fooled, I wonder? The nerve, to try to subtly manipulate me into seeing his fantastic perspective on the world despite believing himself that he'd never want people to do the same to him. Damn, people love to go against their own beliefs. I'm like, dude, get a degree if you know all this shit about reagonomics and social darwism. Don't go talking that shit to people who toss bags on a belt at jfk.

Lesson learned, that's how people are in America. They don't care about each other for shit. If they can trip you up and watch you fall they'll do it and not even blink. They don't care, they're fucked in a little dead end job too, and they're fat and they're ugly, so to hell with you, right?

I read earlier about some 14 year old girl taking pics of herself for her boyfriend, and now she's being charged as a child pornographer or something. What the hell kind of backwards world is this? Take away the camera and tell the bitch to go back to her homework. Don't charge her. Who wasn't experimenting sexually at 14? And the bitch has a boyfriend at that age? Oh shit. She's ahead of the class! Promote her a grade, i say. I wish I had a high school bitch back in high school, man, nice little budding body and everything. Let the young people have some fun in life, damnit... shit, just sitting at school all day trapped... can't have no fun. What a world.