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My Sargent stiffed me on the hotel since I was late, my fault. I thought he was cool. But he's strict as hell, tough military people... always kicking ass and being badass. Oh well, got to be able to take the hits myself. I can't cry like a pussy about this shit. Can't cry no more. I'm making THE decision of my life. This is the test, my final right of passage into manhood, not some sissy college shit. What I'm looking for is a brick wall so thick, I have to become some kind of superman to break through it. By God, I have to do this. but it's hard when you're alone. Yeah. Oh well, just got to get it over with, then go on to work another few weeks until I hear about my enlistment. Fuck that's going to be tough. I'll watch some military movies to pass the time.